01/11/2025
time anxiety used to run my whole damn life.
that ag mindset teaches you:
don’t stop. don’t sit. don’t breathe.
hustle. grind. keep moving.
lunch breaks are for the weak & rest is earned, not allowed.
and for years I carried that into my personal life.
even when I left the industry, my brain didn’t clock off —
if I wasn’t doing something productive, I felt guilty.
but today
I laid in the sun
for an hour
doing nothing.
and guess what?
no panic. no guilt. no “you should be doing more.”
just warmth, quiet + peace in my chest.
healing looks like this too.
learning to rest without the world falling apart.
learning I’m safe to slow down.
learning that my worth isn’t tied to how hard I run.
the girl who once panicked at the thought of sitting still…
now finds freedom in the sunshine 🤍
