
21/08/2025
They tell you life after addiction gets better. That you’ll feel free, find yourself again, rebuild relationships, and start living. But the truth is, right now, it doesn’t feel like that for me. I feel lost. I feel tired. I feel like I should be grateful to be clean, but instead I feel empty. My relationship isn’t stronger it’s worse. The passion is gone, the intimacy feels dead, and we sit in boredom more than anything else. I don’t wake up motivated or inspired I wake up wondering what the point is. I don’t have goals. I don’t have direction. Ask me where I see myself in 5 years and I couldn’t even tell you where I see myself tomorrow. Everyone says recovery is about finding yourself again, but right now, it feels more like losing myself in a different way. No drugs, but still no peace. Sometimes life after addiction doesn’t feel like a miracle it feels like another battle. But the show must go on