06/01/2026
I've been feeling pretty good lately. I'm just kind of living my life and enjoying myself as much as possible. I'm starting to get active again and I'm hopeful that I'll get on the right path and stay on it.
June 5th will be the 6th month anniversary of my surgery. That day feels so far away. Almost as if it was another lifetime. On most days here in Ottawa, the sun is shining. It's really nice.
Today is my last day of rehab at the heart hospital.
I get out from time to time. Most of my activity is indoors. But I definitely get a lot of sun through the windows and I like that.
I think I'm in a good place. I'm happy. I hope you're doing well. Life is hard but it's also beautiful. Things could always be much worse.
Having been between life and death has given me a lasting perspective that I am truly grateful for. A gift from God to see life like this.
I don't want to call it apathy. It's not quite that. But it's a resignation or better yet accepting that certain things in life are meant to be, or not. This has allowed me to let go of a few chips that had lived on my shoulders for many years.
And in a strange and nonspecific way, this has all given me an incredible amount of hope. But more than that, it has given me peace and comfort. The ability to breathe better, but also the ability to be. And the comfort of being okay with it. Priceless.