24/06/2024
Last night someone asked my why I’d stopped DJing, the first thing the came out of my head was this: because I don’t want to play the game anymore. I know that I want to focus on making my own music, and I definitely don’t want to have to turn my life into an egocentric and selective scrapbook, hyping my status to a predominantly uninterested ‘follower’ list, very few of whom even bother to come to the gigs I produce or DJ for.
This record released on Euka House in 2000, just arrived in the post, and exemplifies everything I’m trying to say. The track is the product of a few writers and producers who all sit comfortably at the top of the house music tree.
I love this record for many reasons. Firstly because it’s a belter, and secondly because it reminds me of how right I was back in 2000 not to have tried to throw my musical hat into the ring when I’d have been so novice, so freshman, so crap frankly, compared to these honchos and others like them.
It’s not arrogance to show who you are. If you can do it, and especially if you can do it brilliantly, do it. And it’s neither a fault nor a justification for criticism to care; but caring too much about oneself to the detriment of, or in disregard to others, is arrogance. The brilliant deserve to shine, and we should all appreciate the divine gift of basking in their rays of enlightened creation.
The truly great suffer more than others, because it is them, and only them, who set the benchmark to which the rest of us strive. When their humanity is laid bare for all to see, their inevitable fallibility played out in public, the emotional effects are devastating, and in far too many cases they are fatal.
This is why we admire life’s celebrated high achievers, because they were somehow able to deal with that emotional trauma and go again; but sadly, the majority cannot.
So let’s spare a thought for the people who were so brilliant, and so effortlessly human, that they considered being a disappointment worse than being alive.
When I’m done and dusted, if any of my productions brings even half the joy to someone that this one gives me, I’ll take that every day