Sober & Silly Podcost

22/04/2026

I’ve tried most substances, if I’m honest — with the exception of crack, he**in, and fentanyl. Deep down, I think I always knew that crossing that line would likely be the end of me and the life I had left. I’d seen enough, and something in me understood there would be no coming back.

I was also never really around people who used those substances, and I think that mattered more than I realised at the time. Environment plays a huge role in what feels “normal” or accessible.

For a long time, I viewed certain drugs as worse than others. But the truth I’ve learned through experience is that all substances can be damaging, especially when they’re being used to cope with pain, regulate emotions, or escape reality. The label doesn’t matter as much as the impact.

This isn’t about judgement or hierarchy — it’s about honesty. Addiction doesn’t look the same for everyone, and harm is harm, regardless of the substance.

Awareness matters. Compassion matters. And so does understanding how easily lines can shift 🤍

22/03/2026

Note to self…..

15/03/2026

For a long time, I struggled with the idea of purpose.
So many people find theirs through children, partners, or family life — and I don’t have my own children. For years, I felt like that meant I was failing somehow, like I was missing the one thing that would force me to change, to survive, to be better. I honestly believed that being a mum might have saved me.

There were moments where the absence of that life left me questioning my worth, my place here, even whether I wanted to be here at all. Feeling like I had no child, no man, no clear role — it was heavy, and it hurt deeply.

But somewhere along the way, something shifted.

I’ve come to realise that my purpose isn’t what I thought it had to be. My purpose is helping others who are like me, who feel lost, broken, or forgotten. Turning my pain into something that might make someone else feel less alone has given my life real meaning.

I wouldn’t be here without the support circle I have now — people who saw me when I couldn’t see myself and stayed.

Today, I’m genuinely happy. I have my own flat, two cats, and I’ve paid every single bill for a whole year — especially the house bills — without missing one. That might seem small to some, but to me, it’s everything.

This is the happiest I’ve been in years. And for the first time, I think I know exactly why I’m here 🤍

14/03/2026

Quick update to go with the video 💬
Not getting into rehab this time has hit me hard emotionally, but I want to reassure everyone that I am safe and okay. I haven’t relapsed on alcohol or any hard substances. I am still smoking cannabis, but I’m actively cutting down and staying honest about where I’m at.

I’m disappointed, frustrated, and tired — but I’m still here and still trying. Thank you to everyone who’s checked in and supported me through this. It really does mean more than you know 🤍

13/03/2026

🌟 A little from my heart 🌟

If you’ve been following my journey, you’ll know my YouTube channel & recovery podcast are about honesty, healing, and showing that recovery is possible – even on the messy days. I share my story not because I have it all figured out, but because I know how lonely addiction can feel.

I’ve recently turned on Facebook Stars as a way for anyone who wants to support my content to do so. Every star helps me keep creating, improving the podcast, and working towards a bigger goal I hold really close to my heart.

✨ My long-term dream is to give back to the Basildon community by helping create a safe space for people struggling with addiction – somewhere non-judgemental, supportive, and real. A place where people can sit, talk, heal, and access support while working alongside housing services, food banks, addiction support, mental health and domestic violence services.

This isn’t about money for me – it’s about building something that could genuinely help people who feel forgotten.

If my content has helped you, made you feel less alone, or simply resonated with you, sending Stars is one way to support that vision 🌱
And if you can’t – your presence, comments, and shares mean just as much.

Thank you for being here. We recover together 🤍

⭐️ Stars are optional, support is always appreciated ⭐️

10/03/2026

https://youtu.be/9HyJkNPnupM?si=8eS5_12-P0knoRsx

🎙️ New video is live on YouTube 💜

I’ve recently uploaded the newest Sober and Silly episode — honest chats about life, sobriety, and mental health, with a bit of humour and a lot of heart.

If you’ve got a few minutes, I’d love for you to head over, have a watch, and subscribe to help this little community grow 🤍

Hey hi? Welcome or welcome back 💜Me answering the first 5 questions to kick start the channel with 😬Being open and honest is really what I’m trying to do h...

08/03/2026

I’ve dropped a new Sober and Silly video where I answer some honest questions about life, sobriety, and mental health.
Some of them were easy… some of them really made me think. 🎙️

https://youtu.be/9HyJkNPnupM?si=blNTHkTNuh0j-pyr

Who I was vs who I’m becoming 🎥

Hey hi? Welcome or welcome back 💜Me answering the first 5 questions to kick start the channel with 😬Being open and honest is really what I’m trying to do h...

07/03/2026

💜 1. Honest question…
What’s something people misunderstand about sobriety?

⭐️. For me, it’s that sobriety doesn’t look the same for everyone and that it is a journey right till the very end.
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💜 2. Let’s be real for a moment…
What was the hardest part about choosing yourself?

⭐️. Accepting myself for who I am and who I was before.

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💜 3. A little reflection…
What’s one small thing that makes your day better when you’re struggling?

⭐️. Knowing I have the best support circle in my life right now that I can depend on.
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💜 4. Be honest…
What’s one thing you’re proud of that most people don’t see?

⭐️. That I admitted truly that I was struggling with addiction issues + I went and got the extra support I needed to be able to go sober.

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💜 5. Quick check-in…
If your younger self could see you today, what do you think they’d say?

⭐️. I would say to her; that life will test you beyond compare but know that you still have a good heart and are a good person. I love you and I’m sorry for what I put you through but better days are coming.

I’ll be sharing more thoughts like this in a new Sober and Silly video dropping tomorrow at 6pm (UK time) 🎙️
Hope to see you there🙏💜

04/03/2026

🎯 Little challenge I’ve set myself…

I’ve recently uploaded my first Sober and Silly YouTube video and my goal is 25 subscribers and 100 views on this one by the end of the month🥰 (starting with attainable goals)

If you’ve got a minute, I’d really appreciate a like, comment, share, or subscribe — it honestly helps more than you realise, especially when you’re just starting out 🤍

Thank you for supporting something that means a lot to me 🎙️✨

My next upload will be ready for Sunday at 6pm UK time over on YT 💜

02/03/2026

🎙️ If you fancy it…
I’ve started a YouTube channel called Sober and Silly — a space for honest chats about sobriety, addiction, and mental health, with a bit of humour thrown in.

If you’d like to pop over, watch, or subscribe, it would honestly mean a lot 🤍