02/08/2025
Thereâs a version of me that used to think hustling meant success: long hours, fast pace, always on the go.đ¨
Now I can see that was survival mode.
I was constantly trying to outrun the fear that resting would make me irrelevant.
The shift wasnât instant though.
Itâs taken unlearning years of corporate praise and performance, a lifetime of trying to prove my worth to my parents. đ
After a little shadow work, I realised I was bashing the feminine, thinking its energy was weak, using language like âman up,â believing I needed to be strong all the time.
What I learned: feminine leadership isnât fluffy.
Itâs fierce, clear, intuitive, and deeply self-led.
If youâve sat in your masculine energy as long as I did, believing youâre only paid well if you work hard, the shift will at first feel lazy, unproductive, and empty.
I stopped fighting for space in a system never built for me and started creating something that is.
But I couldnât escape myself, so I got to the root of why giving all of myself away felt good.
I had to bring the feminine back to myself, instead of just giving to others.
Masculine was moving me; feminine was nurturing everyone else (oddly masculine, as I was giving instead of receiving).
So I turned that focus inward, started saying no, started listening, prioritised rest and slowed down.
Iâm still sitting in the discomfort of this transition, and the universe is testing me HARD, daily, seeing if Iâll revert to hustling for safety instead of trusting.
Already, itâs given me space to see life, behaviors, the world, and people behaviours (and my own) more clearly.
With every evolution, there are adjustments and new challenges, but Iâm embracing them with self kindness.
This is the feminine way, the only way to fill my cup so I can give energy where itâs actually needed without anything to win or prove
No Boss, No Burnout, No Bu****it.
Love K x.
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