10/07/2025
Five stars for this because (a) it's a jolly good story, and (b) it's so rare to find a depiction of OCD, either in books or in films, that goes beyond the 'germ-phobic neatness freak' trope to tackle the crippling anxiety and overriding need to feel safe that lies at the root of the repetitive rituals and bizarre behaviour. I was convinced that Fisher must either be a sufferer herself, or have a close family member with OCD, but no, she says in the Acknowledgements that both she and her children are neurotypical - which makes her depiction of Jonathan 'Joe-Nathan' Clarke all the more amazing.
Joe, aged 23, lives with his mother Janet, who encourages him to engage with life and is often heard to repeat that her son 'doesn't have a mean bone in his body.' He finds work at the Compass Store - so named because it has a helpful compass mosaic embedded in the floor pointing out the different directions - as a shelf-stacker, a tidy, repetitive job that he enjoys. His boss, Hugo, is kind, understanding and helpful, as are his colleagues, middle-aged, motherly Pip and sweary, abrasive Chloe. But other colleagues, such as 'Mean Charlie' and his sidekick Owen, are not so understanding, and Joe often finds himself the butt of jokes that he does not understand but knows are not kindly meant.
However, as long as he can keep to his morning routine, greet the trees on the way to work and put his satchel in his locker, fasten his tabard and stow his lunchbox safely in the fridge without having to talk to anyone, Joe can enjoy his day, and look forward to finishing it off with a few episodes of 'Friends' to relax with before bed. Sometimes, of course, a 'new thing' might crop up and have to be dealt with, but 'he was buoyed and drew reassurance about dealing with the new thing by the consistency of his normal life; it was a bedrock and a safety net; a reliable place that was there like the bass note in a song.'
The one day a new thing happens that blows everything else out of the water - his mother dies unexpectedly, and Joe is left to continue his life without the one who has guided, comforted and protected him since childhood. His colleagues and two kind neighbours who have promised Janet to keep an eye on him in the event of her death all step into the breach and try to help - and in addition, Janet has left two books, one filled with notes about daily household tasks and one containing various nuggets of advice about life in general, to help her son should he ever have to manage without her.
Gradually, a new routine is established with the help of these written guidelines and an alarm clock to parcel out the time at weekends; and when 'Mean Charlie' turns out to be not so mean after all, but rather to be the victim of an alcoholic, abusive father, Joe is determined to make a friend of him against all the odds, and show him that he has 'no mean bones'.
It's a tender, heart breaking, life-affirming story that will have any reader rooting for Joe, but especially one who, like me, also suffers from OCD. Although I'm much more high-functioning than poor Joe, there's so much about him that I can identify with - not least this lovely description of the effects of alcohol on the OCD brain: 'He suddenly realised that although the cups were not lined up and there were sheets of paper that were not cleanly stacked, and the pen was half on and half off the table, he did not care. Okay, he cared a bit. That pen could easily fall. He moved it so that it was fully on the table with no part of it hanging over the edge. But it wasn't straight, and he didn't care at all, when he usually would. A lot. Joe felt free from himself. And even though he loved himself, it was nice to be free.'
Cheers, Joe! I'm so glad you get your happy ending.