Bad Mum Magazine, Essex (2026)

13/10/2025

Me and my younger self ❤️

Well, firstly, this is so strange to look at, and it blows my mind that AI can create this from two photos where I am not even hugging anyone!

I find this photo really difficult to look at, and it's a therapy session I've been avoiding for a long time. What I would give to be able to go back in time and give myself a hug.

I'd tell her the truth that things won't get better for a long time, you will see and hear things a little girl shouldn't, you will feel lost and lonely, and like you can't find your place in the world. You will experience some terrible things and lose so many people along the way, but eventually, you do get there.

You marry your best friend, he was right under your nose the whole time (and don't worry you'll try to push him away but he won't go anywhere, you do deserve him!) You have the most amazing son who makes you proud every day! You adopt a dog! And guess what, you go travelling, see the world and you know that marathon you dreamt of running? Well, you only went and ran it twice!! I just won't tell you how long it took! We haven't got that book deal yet, but I am nearly finished with my English degree; yes, you're not stupid after all! We haven't got a diagnosis yet, but I promise to work on that one next year.

Keep going one step in front of the other because my darling girl, you will get there.

Sometimes it is so hard to look back, but it is even better to look at how far you've come ❤️

17/07/2025

How are we here already 😢

From nursery all the way up to year six and what a ride it has been! There has been so many tears, frustrating moments, angry times, endless sleepless nights, assessments, home visits, reports, school visits, people telling me I'm a Bad Mum, SENCOs telling me the problem is at home, speech and language therapy, appointments, extra homework and early morning clubs, tests, medication, sensory disorder, school plans...and the list goes on.

But that's all gone now, the hard work is complete and the results are this amazing, strong, so funny and polite and very creative young man who loves hard and brings so much to the world.

Jake what you've achieved is amazing and gone way beyond everyone's expectations but not ours, we knew you would get there, in your own time.

Now secondary school is here! I'm scared but you're absolutely fine! Go and smash it as you always have! ❤️

10/06/2025

No more justifying, no more feeling guilty, no more worrying about what people think and more time for holidays, memories, and laughter ❤️

29/04/2025

Let's talk endometriosis because it's completely dimmed the light on my marathon experience and no this isn't a sympathy post; it's a let's have some flipping respect for women post, because I can bet that 90% of the women (including my running partner) was dealing with other stuff on top of that bloody heat!

For 3 months leading up to the marathon I was on boxes and boxes of antibiotics, to the point of Si making me a timetable of what I need to take and when, and he then stuck it up in the kitchen. I still have a bag to get through now.

Then,on top of that ,hey advised me to have the coil fitted to help with the endometriosis and the pain. In hindsight I,wish I had said no I'll wait until after the marathon because that caused one long never ending period, right up until and on the day of the marathon.

I had many conversations with everyone and all saying with my injuries aswell I need to drop out the marathon but it wasn't an option for me, even though I knew very well there's no way I should be running.

The reason I'm sharing this is because I've purchased my marathon photos and right now, I hate all of them and can't look at them. It took everything to post the one of me and kerry finishing together.

It's mad as I should be so proud of myself when I look at them but they just remind me of what I was going through inside and how my body was reacting to everything on the day.

Endometriosis is doing my head in and so much of it is out of my control but it didn't stop me on Sunday and we can still do anything when we put our minds to it. It's always a mind game! There were so many amazing people running that had far bigger obstacles to overcome than me so my problems seem tiny in comparison.

Us women go through so much in silence and just get through the pain because that's what we do, that's all we know!

But would I have got up Sunday, looked at the weather forecast, felt the way I did and go 'you know what, I'm going to run for 7 hours today!' No!! I would have made a hot water bottle and been curled up all day in pain!

So endometriosis, do one! And all women that ran on Sunday, you're flipping amazing human beings! Maybe one day I'll look.

28/04/2025

We finish together ❤️

28/04/2025

We done it!!

Official time 7.21. My watch died at mile 23, and it looks like I don't have any record of it! Well, what can I say... firstly, thank you, Kerry, for sticking with me when you could have easily run more and when I was getting patched up by the St John's ambulance! I couldn't have done it without you.
The heat was something else!! We had not trained in that heat at all, and it didn't help sitting in a field for 3.5 hours with no shade waiting to run! Even on the start line, I was really worried! London Marathon people put something up to give people shade. They did well on the course with water, ice, and showers.
From mile 16, the wheels completely came off, and I was walking. The blisters were popping constantly, and omg the pain!

I'm broken and don't let me do it again, but...I DONE IT...TWICE!

That was for you, Laura, we made it, girl!

Oh, and we made it on the TV!!

26/04/2025

London Marathon 25 flat lay done ✔️

See you on the other side ❤️

24/04/2025

That's it, last run done until the big day, now time to rest and prepare the best I can.

Ok, can you all club together to do some voodoo Witch Craft s**t to get the weather to swap days with Saturday please 🙏 I'm sure they won't mind because Saturday is looking perfect and Sunday is being a dick and very hot! I hate running in the heat 😬 🥵

If anyone can spare any change, no matter how small, I'll really appreciate it, please ❤️

https://www.justgiving.com/page/sophie-bolt-laura

I know what I'm in for this time, which is making me strangely calm (for now), but I know how hard this will be. The hardest physical thing I've ever done in my life and I know it will be very painful. Last time, I could walk on my feet for a week afterwards!!

Why am I doing it again? Why do we go through childbirth again (well not me personally as one was enough but you catch my drift!) It's one of the hardest days but it's also one of the most amazing days ever!! Where else do you have complete strangers calling your name for hours and wishing you well? It's so emotional the love that people show you.

Anyway, I don't want to be one of those who bang on and on about the same thing 😉 but this is for Laura. A couple of days after I found out the news I said to Si I need to get in the marathon somehow so I could put my grief/anger/guilt somewhere positive before it ate me alive and that's what I done.

I got into the marathon so late compared to everyone else so only had a couple of months to train (hence the injuries) and fundraise but I'm so happy to say I done it, and I'll be on that start line!

It won't be quick, it won't be pretty but it will be absolutely amazing and best of all I have my friend running next to me and I can't wait to cross the line together ❤️

See you on the other side!! Track me if you can, and I hope I keep my promise and do you all proud.

23/04/2025

The expo is done ✔️

I have my bib, kit bag and strangely enough my finishers t-shirt!

We had a good time wondering about seeing all the different stalls but I was a bit gutted that they didn't have the wall this time to write a message for the person you're running for. I found my name though in 55,000 runners!

Popped by and saw the Salvation Army Stall and got my goodie bag! Saw Gabby Logan too!

After I got the advice of dont spend a fortune on s**t you don't need... I got a heat pack thing, signed up to a pasta delivery service and we now sponsor a guide dog 😂🤷🏻‍♀️

4 days to go...

02/04/2025

World Autism Awareness Day 💙 🦋🧩

Recently, Jake's half-brother was diagnosed with autism after a long wait, which brings more colour to the family. I still strongly believe that I have something, and a diagnosis would change my life. Si most definitely does, and he isn't bothered either way. It's amazing how differently people feel about it.

I often get asked, 'Why would it change your life?'

And I say because I would finally know who I am. I could finally breathe out. I could finally let the mask slip. I could get some peace. I would know why I was the odd girl growing up with no friends. I would know it wasn't my fault after all, and I'm not going crazy!

I could finally be me.

This is all I wanted for Jake. I knew from when he was a baby that he was autistic. He was my first child, and I had no reference or experience to go from, I just knew because he was me. I knew what he was thinking and feeling, why he was crying, why he couldn't sleep or eat. So, I battled one of the hardest fights of my life - 4 years and 3 autism assessments - to get Jake the answers I never had.

But why can't I do the same fight for myself?

I tried once, and the doctor told me I was anxious and to try CBT. Done that, and yes, it was great, but surprisingly enough, I'm still the same.

So, maybe today is reminding myself to go again, push harder, and like I done with Jake, don't take no for an answer. It shouldn't be this hard, but it is. The waiting times are even longer now, and the demand is bigger than ever before. But I'm not going anywhere (hopefully), and I've already waited 42 years, and that's long enough, don't you think?

12/03/2025

My story is in the Colchester local newspaper. If anyone would like to read it, I've put the link in my bio.

Thank you ❤️

02/03/2025

You know what, when this came through the post, I dismissed it for a few reasons, but now I'm realising that I should be bloody proud of this!

I raised £1,461.68 for the National Autistic Society 🥳

I'm currently at £1,366 for the Salvation Army 🥳

We aren't great at showing our achievements, so I'm trying today! ❤️

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