27/03/2025
It’s been 5 years since my dad passed today🕊️🤍.
Quite frankly the single most traumatising day of my life, I hate everything about 2020. Watching him take his last breath, sobbing head to toe in PPE, whilst the country was in day 3 of a national lockdown🥴
But I promise you, we wouldn’t change it for the world.
And we thank God everyday that our little family of 4 were together in his final moments, down to the single most divine intervention that changed everything.
The way things escalated in 24 hours felt like a fever dream,
I think back to my mum who was an absolute rock (and still is). As she selflessly connected 100s of calls so family and friends could say goodbye, whilst holding us together in what little time we had. I think of my sister, who processed the unimaginable at only 9, isolated from everything she once knew. And I think back to my circle who consistently showed up for me in the darkest times, from coming to talk to me outside windows, calling everyday, and roller skating to my house just to be there.
A lockdown funeral, virtual nine-night, bbc interview, a huff post article, a , secondary funeral and memorial party later. This rollercoaster of grief has been absolutely life changing - a real eye opener.
It’s a constant fight between making new memories and reaching new milestones without him, mourning what was once, all that really could’ve been, and pushing forwards to new chapters making him proud.
I’m really not the person I once was, and a piece of me definitely died with him that day. But my gosh I’m so proud of the woman I am now, the progress I’ve made, the work I put in to manage on a daily basis, and allowing God to completely cover me and take the lead in my life.
“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.”
Psalms 91:1 NKJV
I might not show it, but I miss my dad today and everyday until we meet again🙏🏾🦊❤️
