21/02/2022
A reflection on the last year…
This time last year there was a tragic fire at my neighbour’s house. It was terrifying. We had to leave in the middle of the night, with the rescue services working at top speed to control the blaze, not knowing if there would be anything to return to.
I have never experienced a moment like it. As I stood on the street outside I felt sadness for my home and belongings. Not the most expensive ones, or the most valuable; but those that were probably worthless to others - my photos and personal gifts - special things that couldn’t be replaced. And as I experienced this I felt such detachment from all my worldly possessions. We were alive - my children were alive. And those ‘things’ - they were still memories in my head and most importantly my heart. I didn’t need them physically in my hands.
Just after the fire, I was nominated for and won the .in.business author award. Alhamdulillah it was such a wonderful occasion. I couldn’t believe it! It was an honour to be nominated, but to actually win! SubhanAllah!
Alhamdulillah in July, I had my fourth baby ☺️. Such a terrific blessing!
We moved back home in September 2021 when the house was relatively safe for children to be living there! And works are still ongoing to this day. We are still living the rollercoaster of life with all its highs and lows- Alhamdulillah for it all.
But what about my business… well I think I can count the number of orders through my website on my fingers, or maybe not… I can’t remember that far back! My accounts and spreadsheets are terribly out of date (but I’m working on them ) and I haven’t done any promotional work.
Sometimes when we look at a person and/or their work, we only see the glitz and the glam. The awards, the nice photos, and the success. It’s impossible to know the sweat, blood and tears behind it all. So this is first and foremost a reminder to myself -
I feel like I didn’t deserve the award. I haven’t achieved ‘great’ things - what they are I’m not sure.
But I do know that my time will come. Surely Allah is with the patient ones. thanks for your reminder 🥰