24/07/2025
💚 Healing in an Uncomfortable Home 💙
Healing whether physical, emotional, or spiritual is already a journey. It takes time, patience, intentional care, the right support, and most importantly, a safe and peaceful environment but when you're trying to heal in a home that doesn’t feel like peace…it hits differently. It shakes something in your spirit. You start realizing that it’s not just what’s happening inside your body that hurts it’s also what’s happening around you.
Your environment matters more than people realize. If the atmosphere around you is loud, tense, unpredictable, or filled with conflict, it starts to wear down your nervous system. That constant tension the kind that you can't always explain delays healing in ways people don't see. You’re not just dealing with your illness or your trauma. You’re also trying to manage the weight of a space that feels heavy. That’s a different kind of fight and sometimes, people around you don’t understand.
An uncomfortable home doesn’t always mean there’s abuse, loud arguments, or open chaos, it’s the quiet kind of pressure that builds up when you don't feel like you belong. It’s the lack of privacy feeling like there’s nowhere in the house you can fully breathe, stretch, or just be. It’s living around people who don’t understand your condition, or worse make you feel like a burden for needing support. Questions start echoing in your mind. “Am I too much?” “Am I overstaying my welcome?” “Why does it feel like I have to fight for peace, especially when I’m just trying to survive?” The room might be quiet, but your soul is screaming. Your spirit is exhausted.
For those of us staying with family, it can hit even harder. Especially when you're staying there because of your condition because you’re unable to live on your own or financially support yourself while fighting this battle. You try to make your space feel comfortable or sanitary for your healing. But then you’re reminded:
“This isn’t your house.” That statement…whether said with words or in looks or in energy…hits like a slap.
It confirms what you already know but didn’t want to hear out loud. You’re reminded you don’t own the space you’re trying to heal in. You’re reminded that even though you’re here out of necessity, not choice you’re still considered temporary and that stings. It hurts because it reinforces the very thing you’re trying to overcome: instability. But even then… don’t lose hope. Even in a home that feels heavy, healing is still possible.Even in a place where you feel like a guest, you can still find refuge.
