02/12/2021
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2021 treated me in a weird way. It put me down A LOT, but also gave me confidence, MASSIVE CONFIDENCE, by the end.
Earlier this year, collection of events put me down big time. Still, It gave me the chance to take a step back from everything and really think deep about whether if this is really what i want or if it’s just my stubborn ass torturing myself and not letting me ‘let go’.
I really took my time and took a look at everything around me. In the process I still kept on making music, but it just wasn’t anything from the bottom of my heart. Several months pass by then one day it just struck me, just out of the blue. Maybe it was jealousy of seeing others run right past me and ahead, maybe it was seeing myself staying at the same place with no progress, idk but something struck me. It made me realize that I love this. I love this to a point where I’m OBSESSED with making this work. I NEEDED this to work regardless of companions and supports and what not. This realization made me want to hone my craft, really fine tune it made me strive to learn more. It made me GRIND MY ASS OFF literally my ass off. Well not quite literally but still. i forgot all about ‘showing my grind off on social media’ cuz I saw that showing off with nothing to back it up was the silliest, most pitiful s**t i can do to myself. Yo it took a long time of no party and just back and forth of work and studio.
Fastforward, here i am with overwhelming numbers in comparison with actual product being released. I want to thank everyone ,whether you support me and my project or not, who has listened, followed, whatever there is to support the project. And i won’t make any bigass flashy promises of us taking over the year and possibly the world, but i promise myself that 2022 will be the year where everything will start to look like it’s puzzling together.
I usually keep quiet regarding my musical project on my personal account but i really had to get this off my chest.
Cheers