03/09/2025
Sometimes If I remember my childhood crushes and I will just whisper, "Father Lord, thank You for saving me." Because if I had followed that path back then, probably by now I would be down in the village.
Honestly, Jehovah Overdo, You really saved me from myself.😂
Back then, if one of them lent me a sharpener, my mind was already shouting, "This is my future husband!"& If he gave me a biscuit, I called it engagement. I even used to write his surname at the back of my notebook with love hearts, practicing how my name would look when I marry him. Small me, pressing my chest and humming Celine Dion like love was part of the timetable. I even planned our children's names a first son, first daughter, everything already arranged in my rough work book.🤣🤣
But thank God for my mom's discipline. That woman's cane is still registered in my memory.
While I was busy daydreaming about "my future husband," she was making sure I focused on my books and future plans
And the way life turns out ehn, crush can deceive you. Those small butterflies in the stomach can push you into a life you never pictured for yourself.
I can't even Imagine myself, every Saturday, tying wrapper up and down, fanning myself with church program or torn carton, packing nylon in my handbag ready to pack rice for the children at every event. From one burial to another, just to put food on the table. Shouting, "Children, come inside! Rain is about to fall on the generator. Mpa chukwudi, Carry the gen inside before petrol finishes and the engine knocks!"🤣🙈
Fast forward to today, I sometimes see their pictures or videos, or even meet them physically, and I just smile and say, "God, this is not the life I ever pictured for myself. You really rescued me."
So anytime I see those guys, I don't laugh at them, I laugh at me. Like, "So this was the prince charming that was making me press my chest, draw love hearts, and act silly back then?"
Thank God for strict parenting and small sense, because childhood crush can carry you into a destination you never ordered. God did not allow me to be lost.🙌🙌
