19/08/2023
To those of you who has refused to let go and fix your marriage, this is for you
From temmy's wall
I was summoned suddenly to the hospital after almost three years of separation. He was on the sick bed, seeing each other again, reminded me of the many dreams I've had about him and how i was the one telling him I don't have anything against him again.
I did the same, he was calm, he responded positively to everything I said to him, I apologized for the wrongs I did, which was to call the cops, I told him the devil did us great evil and we can start all over again.
I asked if I should go home and make food for him, he said yes, oh, what a joy! I miss cooking for him, 😢 I told him, our kids are fine and standing by him on the bedside was my 13yrs old, and I said, I never fought you back, I've been waiting and hoping that all this war will end oneday.
The SW said he was okay that I came,
There's a me that's feeling hopeful that he's going to come back home and all shall be well again.
Only for me to be called again late night that he died. I was confused, I ran to the hospital confused, my sight became blurry, and I couldn't imagine me seeing him dead. I was hoping we would talk about everything and how much I had learned and suffered alone with the kids.
I was hoping I would get the opportunity to tell him, he hurt me so much and made me suffer like a criminal that I wasn't. My head went blank.
I had bladder loose.
I couldn't comprehend anything. I was numb.
I was summoned to pick up his body. Where do I go from here, koyemi.
I was handed over all his house keys, car keys, credit cards, everything!!!
Still in shock, I visited his home to move his stuff back home, and my heart kept breaking as many things were being revealed at that time.
He has different types of concoctions sent to him from nigeria by his families that he's been taking, which led to his kidney damage.
I realized I'm the one who often scrutinized his intakes.
12 years of marriage, he never visit