31/08/2023
Today is the last day of August and I can’t help but briefly recount what this year, and this month has been for me.
When I woke up in Port Harcourt 1st of January this year, I never envisaged I’ll finally be moving here. Like, the thoughts didn’t occur to me at all. I had just come to spend the Christmas/new year and head back to my life.
I left Port Harcourt energized and filled with such positive energy to tackle life and business as usual. But being sick is something you don’t plan for and it came like a flood. It disoriented my business, coupled with the fact that I was not in a good mental place. It shook me so much, e come be like say na my own worse pass.
A friend suggested japa, and plans were made to that effect. I had to start selling off the rest of my stuff all over again even after I was discharged. I needed to raise money without bothering anyone. This friend promised to do other things for me without charging me, all I had to do was get my passport and money for flight. This friend made possible contacts in about three different countries so I can have where to stay for a few weeks before standing on my feet.
The plan seemed to be going well. I was able to raise money for visa which I sent to this person, while hustling money for flight.
At this point, I want to say LOL because I’m laughing out loud. And then, I’d like to pause if you don’t mind. Might continue the details some other time.
But the long and short of it all is that it became so delayed that it was easy to change my mind. What was supposed to happen towards end of march was moved to April. From April to May to June, to July and I’m not even joking.
I became só frustrated because I had given out my house for rent in order to raise some of the money. I moved from one place to another with my luggages, and no matter how I tried to be the perfect guest in these places, the hosts either got tired of bearing my burden or I got tired of being a burden. I encountered experiences that shook and shaped me at the same time. There’s one that I had to stay with a married couple and witnessed this man hitting his heavily pregnant wife. When I intervened, I was automatically kicked out of the house. I didn’t actually mind because I would have left anyway. From there, I stayed in an uncompleted building for a while before finally getting a place to stay. It was so bad that I had to embark on a forty days prayer and fasting and visited Monasteries plus seminaries cos e no funny again.
But from the middle of July till now, despite other minor challenges, I’m the most grateful human on earth! I’m grateful for sanity. I’m grateful for my mental state. I’m grateful for where I am, both physically, emotionally and mentally. I’m so grateful that God preserved me and gave me a testimony. I am so grateful for provisions of the necessities of living.
I do not want to dwell on regret or wish my travel out plans was successful, because I have no idea what it would have held for me. But I’m thankful I chose this city, my street, my compound. My peace of mind has been paramount to me and I have it in abundance.
I’m grateful for the job I have, my business, my relationship, my landlord and his family and everyone that has been there for me both online and offline.
I am most grateful that I’m in such a great place health wise. That for almost two months now I’ve not had a reason to go to the hospital. I do what I can, when I can and I find to rest and do the things I love. It’s my perfect life. I told someone that I would wait till December to answer if I’m truly happy about the decision I took, coming here. And while I’m still waiting, I’m going to give thanks for the journey so far.
I’m going to give thanks for the inspiration to keep building and sustaining my brand. I’m going to give thanks cos I’m finally living, instead of just barely existing.
I give thanks for it all and I embrace all the goodness the EMBER months come with. I embrace the soft life, the peace, the tranquility, the beautiful ideas that will be manifested in my life and business. Starting from September, I breath in fresh air of health for the rest of the year. Fresh air of happiness. Fresh air of fulfillment. Fresh air of satisfaction. Fresh air of abundance. I shall not lack, I shall not want, I shall not beg. I am contented and I am sufficiently blessed 😇
