19/06/2026
Today was the closest to death I ever got.
Itās also the only two days we made a potentially deadly mistake.
In the morning, we got the weather report and saw that there was a big storm supposed to be coming in the next day, which could potentially block us from getting over Goatās Pass.
We discussed going farther than the hut everyone was aiming for and camping to make the next day quicker.
This would enable us to get passed all the river crossings that could block us if they got too high.
In the end, we decided to play it by ear and see how we felt when we got to Kiwi West Hut.
Overall, the day went fantastically.
Maddy and I mostly kept together and chatted while Owen went ahead.
The other people weād met, Anna and the Czech couple wizzed ahead too.
By time we got to Kiwi West hut, it was full, not just by our group but by some hikers going southbound.
We asked them about the conditions and they warned us of a big river crossings weād have to do across the Taramakau River.
We decided to go on another 6kms or so to get a head start on tomorrow as weād discussed, which meant weād cross that river tonight.
Iād read in one of the hut books that someone weād walked with had slipped in a river, lost his hiking pole, and only been able to save himself a bit downstream, so that was in the back of my mind.
The river crossing was just at the end of the 6kms, so by time we got there, we were tired.
Owen, being the most experienced of our group, scouted a safe place to cross and went to the other side.
But we hadnāt crossed that many rivers so far, and none this deep, so he didnāt really know my experience level with rivers (which was pretty much none).
Me and Maddy started to cross slowly following all the pointers he gave us.
Fave the flow and crab your way across. Never cross your feet. Lean towards the flow on tour polls.
The pressure against my legs was too much, and I was starting to slip.
I could feel the panic rising.
Half way across I froze.
Maddy asked if we should go back.
I said it was too late.
I was too far in to turn around.
Sensing my panic, Owen threw off his backpack and ran to me.
āBREATHE DANIELLA! BREATHE!ā
I felt my foot slip agin, and he grabbed my arm.
He repeated this over and over while standing in front of me blocking the water flow.
Both me and Maddy realised that we were indeed not breathing.
As I began to breathe more deeply, the panic subsided and I slowly inched my way across, eventually making it to the bank.
I literally started jumping for joy and hugging them both.
I made it!
I was alive!
The euphoria stuck with me for hours, but even worse, the fear stuck with me all night as I knew tomorrow we had more crossings to do.
Did I have the skill level?
Could I do this?
And dear Owen for jumping to my rescue.
Iām so glad we stuck together!
As we put up camp on the other side of the bank just high enough to avoid any rising rivers (just in case though rain wasnāt predicted), a massive wind blew and we heard several trees around us fall.
The entire river bank was lined by massive trees.
Not a great place to sleep.
But alas, we had nothing left in us after the crossing, and we desperately needed sleep.
Last minute, we realised that Maddy had lost her tent along the way, so we ended up sharing mine (luckily a 2 person).
It was one of the nights where I felt most alive.
Near death, dear friendship, and my first girlās sleepover in a tent in probably 3 decades.