03/09/2026
I didnât know how bad today would be when I woke up.
In fact, I was jolly.
The weather was beautiful and the bike ride was easy.
Owen and I were having a great time!
It wasnât until we arrived at the lodge that things turned for the worst.
We checked the weather and saw that a big storm was brewing.
If we didnât get over a big river crossing early tomorrow morning, we wouldnât be able to do the next section.
I wasnât sure if I could do it. The amount of rain I saw coming seemed huge, and it just seemed above my skill level.
Owen and I chatted about it, and I said Iâd ponder what to do.
But then I got a call that changed everything.
Weâd heard a guy had drowned on the Deception River the day after Christmas.
No one knew who he was or if he was a TA hiker.
I had been watching the hut book to see whose name had disappeared but I still wasnât sure who it was.
But Ruby called and she had just found out.
It was Adam, a guy Iâd met just after Paihia.
We had walked on and off together for 3 weeks, with the last time being together at Waitomo caves.
He was only 25, and one of the most keen hikers Iâd met. He loved the TA trail.
I didnât even know him that well, but I was shattered.
Owen and I chatted, and we both felt I was too much of a liability in this next section, especially with this connection to the drowning.
And he admitted he would feel responsible for me, and that he was feeling a bit worn out from this responsibility.
I was so thankful he felt safe enough to be honest with me, heartbroken to lose my hiking buddy, and worried about him going in alone (though I gave him all my spare food and the guy grew up solo hiking in the alps!).
And so, feeling the saddest Iâd felt in a long time, we had one last celebratory dinner.
When I went to âsleepâ, I spent all night nightmaring about Adam drowning.
His poor young soul, taken too early.
It wasnât worth it to me to do this next section.
Right now, I needed to take care of myself.