caitruthlawrence

15/09/2025

Let me tell you why an inclusive trip to my favourite ski field is so meaningful for me…

Before I became physically disabled, I absolutely LOVED to snowboard and be on the ski fields. I dreamed of working at the ski fields, chasing winters, boarding around the world, and one day having the freedom to carve it up every weekend, every winter. When I was in psychiatric inpatient for years and years, the thought of returning to snowboarding was a huge motivator for me to do the work to get well. I had a pack of flash cards I’d made with reasons to recover and of the 3 that I actually believed at the time, getting back on a snowboard was one.

Unfortunately, my body had other ideas and I never made it back on a snowboard but the mountain remains my happy place and I now dream of sit skiing for as long as my spine will allow. So, I have finally connected with and the bait that got me to bite was this opportunity for a mountain trip.

The really special thing about this trip though that has got me invested in joining more MidC YAAY events, was the people and the culture. We had a group of young disabled people of all kinds; blind, deaf, autistic, wheelchair users, walking aid users, and many more, all meshed in together with support workers, family, and sign interpreters. The trip was designed from the foundations to be inclusive. Everyone’s needs were met. Everyone’s needs were respected. Every aspect was adapted, translated, accommodated.

In a group like that, my pain and paralysis, the dynamism of my disabilities, my fatigue and sensory needs… it was all understood. It was ordinary and everyone knew how to accept and respect it. We helped each other bridge gaps, and it feels like a group that could become a tribe for me and for all of us there.

I’m so glad I had and took this opportunity. I can’t wait for the next one!



Visual Descriptions:
1. Cait (white-passing, non binary, millennial) in their manual wheelchair on a mountain in active snowfall with thick cloud around. They are grinning with immense joy and wrapped up warm in an orange ski jacket, black ski pants, brown snow boots, a green buff scarf and a pom-pom beanie with yellow reflective goggles. A text overlay reads “Mid C YAAY snow trip”
2. Cait in their orange and black ski gear sitting in a blue plastic toboggan on a moving snow carpet within a shelter tunnel grinning and holding out a thumbs up to a sign on the tunnel wall that reads “Remain Standing At All Times”. A text overlay reads “sry bro. no can do.”
3. Selfie photo of Cait and group leader Antz (white-passing, q***r, Gen X) Cait has an orange jumper and green buff scarf on as they grin and Antz has on a purple hi-vis vest, a knitted beanie, and sunglasses as she grins too. A text overlay reads “he aha te mea nui o te ao? He tāngata.”
4. Group photo of 13 of more than 30 participants in the snow trip all rugged up in ski gear that is mostly black, against a snowy rock face on the ski fields all excited to be a part of it. A text overlay reads “he tāngata, he tāngata, he tāngata”
5. Cait in their orange and black ski gear sledding down a slope on the ski fields in a blue plastic toboggan. A small text graphic tracks with their ride down the slope that reads “That’s Me! —>”
6. Cait sitting grinning with one leg resting on top of the other, on a seat made from old skis on the porch of a lodge. They’re wearing an oversized orange jumper, brown slouch beanie, black leggings, green sneakers, and rainbow striped leg warmers. A text overlay reads “disproportionate excitement for ski bench”
7. Clip marked with text indicating x1.10 playback speed which shows Cait in their orange oversized jumper, black leggings, leopard print AFO braces, green sneakers, and rainbow striped leg warmers, mustering the most movement they possibly can with their paraplegia, to walk up the stairs of the long-distance bus from their wheelchair to their seat.
8. Close up portrait photo of Cait looking out of frame smiling with joy in their orange ski jacket, green buff scarf, gold beanie, and yellow ski goggles with green reflective lenses.
9. Short sped up clip of Cait’s POV from their wheelchair showing their small bunk room at a ski lodge and out into the narrow, panelled, busy hallway.
10. Wide angle of a ski rental business with signage reading “Ski Biz — The Alpine Centre” from the wide gravel car park, a big patchy blue sky above the lodge and the alpine flats stretching out beyond the building. A couple of people outside the building wearing ski gear are talking in the left of the frame.
11. Four people against a snowy rock face on the ski fields where it is actively snowing. On the left is a man in a blue jacket looking out of frame. Centre is a woman wrapped up snugly in blue and black gear, strapped into a bi-ski sit-ski. Standing behind her and helping her are a man and a woman in black gear, smiling.
12. Three people against the rental building on the ski fields where it is actively snowing. Two have their backs to the camera, one in yellow, the other in blue, and in the middle is Antz smiling in her blue jacket and purple hi-vis vests standing beside her black service dog who is resting on a mat on the snow.
13. Close-up of a small snowman built against an orange hazard barrier. It has wooden cutlery arms, a mouth of stones, a carrot nose, and a beige beanie. A text overlay reads “His name was Olaf. Of course oof.”
14. Closeup of Cait against thick cloud as they adjust their yellow ski goggles with green reflective lenses. They’re smiling with joy wearing their orange jacket, green buff scarf, and black ski gloves. A text overlay reads “happy place”
15. Short clip showing the full group of participants in all their ski gear as they depart the ski fields on a bus. One of the sign language interpreters near the front of the bus makes a hang ten sign with her hand and smiles at the camera.
16. Cait in their full ski kit posed sitting on a bench adjusting their goggles with snowy mountainside stretching up behind them. A text overlay reads “(poser)”
17. Wide angle group photo of the 23 of (most of) the group of participants on the trip. Most are still wrapped in ski gear as they pose together in an alpine car park area with cloudy sky and large trees in the background. A text overlay reads “home is not a place it is a people”
18. Closeup portrait of Cait in their ski gear and cervical collar by the window in their bus seat, the snowy mountain outside, they’re smiling gently with gratitude and pensive appreciation.

10/09/2025

TRIGGER WARNING
It has been a decade since I was most unwell but at that time, I was on a long-term section in acute psychiatric wards, most of it spent with a 1:1 watch, much of it with a feeding tube, and more to the point, so depressed and desperate that I had no emotional connections with anyone or anything, my entire existence reduced to a desire to lose weight and harm myself as I tried to cope with my trauma and illnesses.

I explain what my situation was not to seek pity or even care, but just to illustrate that even as sick as I was, I’ve gotten so much better. I am living proof this s**t is possible. I was about as sick as it is possible to be — the few who witnessed it will agree — and now, I may be disabled and chronically ill, I may still be in therapy and recovery, but I no longer have an eating disorder, no longer harm myself, no longer want to die, and live a fairly happy and healthy independent life.

So this year on this su***de prevention day, I’ve had a deep think about ‘actually, how did I get here?’ The process of recovery is individual and incredibly hard work, but when I boil down all the things I’ve done that have helped me come out of the darkest depths, I land on these 10 things that I believe are mostly universal.

1. Connection
2. Creativity
3. Language
4. Stories
5. Dreams & Goals
6. Resting
7. Identity
8. Existentialism
9. Minimalism
10. Love

Existentialism is definitely not for everyone but it is a respected philosophy within therapy, and minimalism is not for everyone either but I strongly believe everyone can benefit from at least some aspects of it. The rest I think are integral to humanity.

I hope this list can provide something of a roadmap for those who are in the trenches, as well as illuminate those who have not fought this battle to just how much mental illness breaks down innate human instincts and the amount of effort that really does go into surviving and recovering.

Being alive is hard, and, hope is real.



Slides Text:
su***de prevention day 2025, 10 things that helped me learn to live again in recovery from chronic suicidality
1. Connection
- Being myself in the company of others, letting people and animals see me, and learning how I can have relationships gives me more people to turn to, more reasons to stick around, and a meaningful, important aspect of life that helps fill the void I had become.
2. Creativity
- Expressing my pain, and finding joy in creating art, crafts, music, and ultimately content, helped people see me and what I was going through so they could help. It lets me feel control over my own story because I can express it accurately, and has helped me find groups where joy and purpose can be found in mastering arts together like choir and art classes
3. Language
- Having the right words to name my experiences and explain what is happening for me changed everything and it’s a journey that never ends: Learning new words to explain my experience continues to change volumes in therapy in particular.
4. Stories
- Hearing, reading, watching the journeys of others who’ve walked similar paths before provides more language, hope, and connection than any other single thing, which is why I share my own.
5. Dreams & Goals
- For a long time I had given up on myself ever having a future so I stopped setting goals. I stopped dreaming and imagining who I might be or where I might go. Forcing myself to dream and goal-set again gave purpose and drive like nothing else and over time those dreams, goals, and the achievements I started collecting, filled in the void that had been there.
6. Resting
- The surprise gift from becoming physically disabled and chronically ill, was that I had no choice but to learn to rest. I was forced to learn how to stop and take breaks and to respect the needs of my body and mind and pace myself. Unsurprisingly, this led me to stop mentally burning out constantly, and learn how rest can be safe and calm; that nothing terrible happens by pausing to care for myself.
7. Identity
- My identity had been entirely swallowed by mental illness. I didn’t know who I was outside of being a psych patient. Getting to know myself, experimenting with what I did and didn’t like, choosing the attitudes I wanted to have, and building a person I felt good being, let me understand that I wasn’t going to stay being nothing but a psych patient. I was no longer going to be someone who would end their own life and identifying with that fact was the biggest reason I’ve left it in the past — I’m not that person anymore.
8. Existentialism
- This is a philosophical ideology that says, in this life, nothing really matters, we’re here by chance, and everything will end without meaning; that all we can do is decide on our own values, what we agree is important, and be a person who lives by that. This is how I have come to see the world and it has taken the pressure off and helped me find peace with my own trauma and the traumas of humanity as a whole.
9. Minimalism
- This is another philosophy which is rooted in understanding that all we need is to have enough and that people are more important than things. It has taught me that if I am overwhelmed, the answer is almost always removing something from my life or simplifying to a degree that no longer feels too much. As a solution to overwhelm, it has been the perfect answer every time and kept my stress at a level that ending my life doesn’t have to be the answer.
10. Love
- At my sickest, I had lost touch entirely with the concept and feeling of love. I had to consciously relearn what love is over time. I had to force myself to acknowledge it, believe it, and feel it. But I was able to relearn that I am loved, immensely, and that I am capable of loving others and many parts of life. I’m still learning how to love to this day, but letting it in makes it very hard to follow through on dangerous thoughts.

26/08/2025

25/08/2025

These are some of the things that make disabled mornings (and lives) look a little bit different. But, you may notice that they’re really all just adaptations of things that make us all the same.

We all need rest, movement, food and water, to wash and dress, plans and routines, and we all need help at times. All of these things are human, and every illustration here merely shows a way that meeting these innate and universal needs can be altered for someone with a disability.

Disabled people have the same needs as everyone else but have different ways of meeting some or many of them. No two people are identical though and neither are any two disabilities. Even two people with the same condition(s) will have their own unique disabled experience and use their own constellation of adaptations to meet their needs and keep moving forward.

I have tried to include a wide range of examples, but there are infinitely more out there, and not all of these apply to every disabled individual. My own mornings include most of these — my own experiences are a large influence on what I create here — but I still haven’t even included all of my own examples. The breadth of variation is huge!

Which of these reflect your own mornings and what would you add to the list?



Image Descriptions
1. Grass green slide with colourful hand drawn illustrations of a feeding tube feed bag, hand squeezing a ball, a persons leg wearing a skirt, AFOs, and sneakers walking with a crutch, a shower stool, walking cane, and a pill cutter, pill crusher, and syringe in a pile. In the centre in hand drawn black letters is the title ‘morning routines disability edition’
2. Sunshine yellow slide with a colourful hand drawn illustration of an inclined profiling bed with an over bed table. The title ‘decide if you can get out of bed’ is above in hand drawn block letters. The remaining space carries black hand written text that reads “Some mornings never even get started. Pain, exhaustion, flareups, injuries, broken equipment, or carers that call in sick can all trap us in bed for the morning or even the whole day.”
3. Bright orange slide with colourful hand drawn illustrations of an active manual wheelchair and a walk in cane and the title ‘transfer to wheelchair or pick up mobility aid’ in hand drawn block letters. The remaining space carries black hand written text that reads “Jumping out of bed may not be so easy, so our trusty mobility aids are often the very start of every day”
4. Pastel pink slide with colourful hand drawn illustrations cutting diagonally across the slide of a full catheter drainage bag and a feeding tube pump and feed bag. Hand drawn block letters spell the titles ‘disconnect tubes’ and ‘empty bags’. Hand written black text supplements the titles, reading “Tubes catheters, ostomies, drains, Vs, feeding tubes...”, “all of these need various Kinds of attention after the night has passed”
5. Butter yellow slide with bright hand drawn illustrations of a bag of IV fluids and a drink bottle with the title ‘fluids before getting up’ in hand drawn block letters. Black hand written text fills the remaining space that reads “many disabilities and medications can cause blood pressure problems meaning fluids are needed to help balance it before getting up”
6. Bubblegum pink slide with colourful hand drawn illustrations of various forms of medications organisers and tools. The title ‘medication’ is centred in hand drawn black letters and below, black hand written text reads “daily medicines usnally include a morning dose. I can be a pill or a dozen, liquids, injections, crushed, through a feeding tube or IV, or combination of many ofthe above”
7. Pastel purple slide with colourful hand drawn illustrations of a hand squeezing a ball and of a persons legs wearing AFOs and sneakers walking with a stick. The title ‘physio exercises’ is at the bottom of the slide with black hand written text above which reads “many disabled people work out in a gym or pool or class, but many have prescribed exercise as well or instead, to build, recover, or maintain function or slow its decline”
8. Sky blue slide with a colourful hand drawn illustrations cutting diagonally of a person with pink hair from behind in their wheelchair, sitting at a table, another pair of hands reaching across to pass over a coffee plunger and mug. The title ‘carer support’ heads the slide in hand drawn block letters and below that, black hand written text reads “carer support sometimes a helping hand with contine tasks is the only way they are possible or sometimes it lessens the load so more can be done through the whole day”
9. Lime green slide with a colourful hand drawn illustration showing a persons side as they arrange drainage tubing that has passed through a specialised zip hole in their dungarees. Along the bottom of the slide, the title ‘dressing in adaptive clothing’ is in hand drawn block letters and above that, black hand written text reads “everybody must get dressed in the morning and adaptive clothing with extra slits, zips, tabs, or designed for a seated fit can optimise disabled dressing dressing in adaptive clothing”
10. Bright green slide with colourful hand drawn illustrations of a shower stool, extended scrub brush, and electric toothbrush. The title ‘bathroom aids’ heads the slide in hand drawn block letters and remaining space carries black hand written text that reads “there are dozens of different adaptive tools to make the bathroom more manageable and many of them are common mainstream products”
11. Fuchsia slide with a colourful hand drawn illustrations of a colour categorised to do list. The title ‘pacing, planning, prioritising’ in hand drawn block letters and a hand drawn battery percentage symbol fill the top right of the slide and the bottom carries black hand written text that reads “managing pain and energy levels means carefully planning out the day's activity so that it goes at a sustainable pace. Sometimes that means pushing things back so having to prioritise what's most important.”
12. Yellow slide with photograph of Cait (white-passing, non binary, millennial, wheelchair user) with small black text that reads "Kia Ora! I'm Cait (they/them) With all my content I try to show the living & learning that comes from being a multiply disabled takatapui in Aoteroa New Zealand & foster safe community" 3 headings in white text bubbles read "", "follow", "subscribe" with socials icons for Instagram, Threads, TikTok, Facebook, and YouTube.

11/08/2025

In the last week or so here in Aotearoa New Zealand, it has felt like winter has finally kicked in full force. It’s great news for those of us heading to the snow but it makes for very chilly mornings where it’s hard to get out of bed, to open the shower door, to stay warm enough at night to actually sleep, to step out into the world in the morning, and all those other wonderful moments of discomfort that tester during the cold of winter.

One thing that helps offset the challenges that the cold temperatures bring for me at least, is to have fun putting together funky rugged up outfits that bring the real winter core. This little collection of somewhat recent outfits shares some inspiration for you and your own winter wardrobe whether that’s as a q***r boss, wheelchair user, thrift load, or all of the above.

Which is your favourite? comment below 👇🏻



Image Descriptions:
1. Cait (white-passing, non binary, millennial) in a park with bare trees against a grey sky in the background, holding a wheelie in their black and yellow manual wheelchair, smiling in an out-of-frame direction. They are wearing faded black baggy jeans are black eyelet-detailed baggy T-shirt over a red thermal with a brown cropped puffer vest and a green mask around their neck. Their face is made up and their hair is in spiky pigtails.
2. Cait is in a parking lot in front of a rainbow pride zebra crossing with dusky mountains in the background. They are in their black and yellow manual wheelchair holding a brown handbag with a cervical collar hanging off it. They are wearing track pants with purple white and black street-style illustrations printed on them with teal and white chunky converse sneakers as well as a turquoise shimmery ski jacket, brown scarf, red cap, and make-up.
3. Cait taking a mirror selfie in their black and yellow manual wheelchair in their bedroom at night. They are wearing a colourful dress with Māori designs printed on it under a black and gold texture sweatshirt with platform UGG boots and a colourful crocheted snood. They are grinning with a face of make-up including bright red shiny lipstick.
4. Cait is on a footpath of a residential street on a completely clear blue day in their yellow and black manual wheelchair. They are wearing black baggy jeans with white sneakers, a dark button down shirt button up right to the top, a black leather jacket, yellow fingerless gloves, a red cap, green mask, and sunglasses.
5. Cait is holding a wheelie in their black and yellow manual wheelchair in front of a red brick building. They are wearing vintage wide-leg blue jeans with red pinstripes, a thin white jumper with yellow leopard print, classic vans sneakers, a very colourful crocheted snood, sunglasses, and dark blue headphones.
6. Cait is in their manual wheelchair, taking a mirror selfie in a full mirrored wall in a hotel lobby. They are wearing gold sequin flared trousers with classic vans sneakers, a bright pink, purple, blue and orange button down shirt and a brown scarf.
7. Cait is in their manual wheelchair on a residential street on a completely clear blue day, smiling at the camera. They are wearing light plaid trousers, white doc Marten boots, a black leather jacket with a brown scarf tucked in, a yellow pom-pom beanie, and dark blue headphones.
8. Cait is in their manual wheelchair at a bus station holding a cup of takeaway coffee in both hands and smiling gently at the camera. They are wearing light plaid trousers with a black Raindek over their lap, brown and blue high top sneakers, a black leather jacket, yellow fingerless gloves, a green mask, and a red cap.
9. Cait is in their manual wheelchair on a residential street on a sunny day with a few puffs of cloud in the sky. They are wearing black baggy jeans with white sneakers, a red, yellow, black, and green patterned jumper with a brown scarf, yellow pom-pom beanie, sunglasses, and black fingerless gloves.
10. Cait is in their powered wheelchair on a residential street on a somewhat sunny day. They are grinning wearing make-up including red lipstick. They are wearing light blue extra baggy cargo jeans with white sneakers, a very bright yellow jumper and a brown scarf.
11. Cait is in a hospital garden on a somewhat sunny day in their manual wheelchair. They are wearing black skinny jeans with lime green high top Billy sneakers, a multicoloured and red velvet top, brown scarf, green mask, black cap, and sunglasses. With all the garments they are wearing on their head, their face is barely visible.
12. Cait is in an inner-city park in their powered wheelchair late on a sunny day with a very large bare tree behind them. They are wearing blue flared jeans with white sneakers, a gold button down shirt, black leather jacket, green mask, and dark blue headphones. They are casually posed looking off into the distance.

28/07/2025

Yes, I’m completely serious.

I’m not proud that my legs don’t work, but I am of how I’ve fought every day to keep living my best life, wheelchair and all, and I’m immensely proud of the dedication and perseverance it’s taken to maximise the function I do have.

I’m not proud that I live a smaller, more isolated life because anything more is overwhelming, but I’m proud that I’ve gotten to know myself so well and respect the way my brain and senses operate. And I’m proud that I’ve always been brave about seizing opportunities when change is always a huge challenge.

I’m not proud that my skin is covered with scars but I am immensely proud to still be alive when I very nearly wasn’t on multiple occasions.

I’m not proud that I grew up in hospitals but I am that I have learned to navigate every avenue of the health system to keep my needs met and of how much courage it has taken to heal, learn, and not just accept, but embrace, what can’t be changed.

I’m proud that because of my disability journey, I’ve learned things about humanity and life that make me a wise, empathetic, and gratefully optimistic adult.

I’m proud that I belong to an embracing, vibrant, resilient, and defiant community of disabled people who throughout history have insisted on our worth and come together with more empathy and encouragement than any other demographic I’ve ever belonged to.

I’m proud to be disabled because I refuse to be ashamed and have more than merely accepted this big part of who I’ll always be.

Disability Pride can confuse some of us because it is SO TRUE that a lot of the disabled experience really f***ing sucks. But it’s not about putting disability on a pedestal, it’s about recognising that we live in a society that shames and is ashamed of its disabled members, and the strongest thing we can fight against that shame with, is pride. It’s about saying, yes, we are disabled and there is no getting rid of us so we demand to be included and valued.
I think there’s a lot right with that. What about you?



Image Description: Hand drawn digital illustration showing a self portrait of Cait (white-passing, non binary, millennial) in a lime green active wheelchair, holding a wheelie holding onto a post. The character is wearing a rainbow graphic T-shirt under a navy distressed leather jacket, zebra print flared trousers, and red sneakers. The background shows a sunset-esque light and shadow pattern made up of the colours and stripes of the Disability Pride flag. Brush calligraphy lettering is overlaid that reads “I’m so proud to be Disabled.”

23/07/2025

Things are rough right now but this has been my cyclic experience since I was very young so I know what to do. I’m not okay right now, but I will be, and that is how it has to be.

12/07/2025

Between chorus convention and the iLead conference, I’ve travelled a fair bit in the last few months so I wanted to illustrate exactly what goes into packing for a week away when you have multiple disabilities.

When I was able-bodied, my packing was a lot easier and more compact. I used to meticulously pack the clothes and toiletries I’d need into a small vintage suitcase and it all felt very aesthetic. Now, I have to accommodate for my mobility needs, chronic pain and illnesses, medical devices, and sensory sensitivities.

I have managed to refine what I pack to a fairly streamlined list as shown in these illustrations, but packing light just isn’t possible with multiple disabilities. I need to take my wheelchair, power assist and first aid tools for any needed repairs. I need all my medications and backup doses in case of delays. I have to cover off tools to keep cool, stay extra hydrated, self-soothe, treat pain and potential injuries, care for my catheter and any complications that might arise, mobility aids to keep me moving and to access environments my wheelchair can’t go, and when all that is covered, I also pack the same clothes, tech, and toiletries that anybody would.

This is my refined list but what does yours look like? From person to person it’s going to look different for different needs and devices. How much of yours overlaps with mine or is there anything on my list you think you will start to pack in future?



Image Descriptions:
1. Yellow slide with hand drawn illustrations of a manual wheelchair, duffel bag, and soft-shell suitcase, with the title “what I pack to travel for a week”
2. Green slide with hand drawn illustrations of a TiLite ZRA wheelchair, screwdriver and socket sets, an AirTag, bag hooks, duct tape, a SmartDrive and chargers, knee strap, and tyre pump, with the title “wheelchair”
3. Pink slide with hand drawn illustrations of an expanding fan, set of keys, hand cream, headphones, wallet, drink bottle, power bank, coffee bag, electrolyte sachets, coffee sachets, travel cup, backup medicine, masks, sunglasses, lip balm, ear plugs, fidget toy, chargers cables, and shopping tote, with the title “handbag”
4. Lime green slide with hand drawn illustrations of tubing fixators, tubie pads, medication in cases, masks, flip flow valves, drainage bags, sterile water, K tape, topical antihistamine, instant heat packs, syringes, electrolyte sachets, topical pain creams, THCXCBD tinture, acupressure pen, and compression socks, with the title “medical”
5. Orange slide with hand drawn illustrations of an iPhone, phone monitor, iPad, lapel microphones, phone camera lenses, selfie stick, multi plug, chargers, flexible tripod, smart watch, ear buds, and a Bluetooth speaker, with the title “TECH”
6. Purple slide with hand drawn illustrations of a cervical collar, slide board, folding crutches, off road Rollator, and AFO braces, with the title “mobility aids”
7. Peach coloured slide with hand drawn illustrations of underwear, socks, a binder, a tie, a swimsuit, dress boots, jeans, T-shirts, dress shirts, fun formal wear, a beanie, a scarf, a cap, sneakers, a night shirt, a blazer, leggings, casual shirts, a leather jacket, wheelchair gloves, and a Raindek, with the title “clothing”
8. Yellow slide with hand drawn illustrations of an electric toothbrush, purple toothpaste, facial cleanser, a hair wrap towel, gradual tanning moisturiser, tweezers, hair ties, shampoo and conditioner, and nail clippers, with the title “toiletries”
9. Turquoise slide with hand drawn illustrations of hairspray, a shaping brush, glitter, wipes, setting powder, concealer, neutral lipstick, an eye pencil, a base brush, blush, mascara, sponges, a felt tip liner, highlight, bronzer, eyeshadow, a blending brush, two eyeshadow brushes, reusable remover pads, and red lipstick, with the title “make up“
10. Yellow slide with photograph of Cait (white-passing, non binary, millennial, wheelchair user) with small black text that reads "Kia Ora! I'm Cait (they/them) With all my content I try to show the living & learning that comes from being a multiply disabled takatapui in Aoteroa New Zealand & foster safe community" 3 headings in white text bubbles read "" "follow” "subscribe" with socials icons for Instagram, Threads, TikTok, Facebook, and YouTube.