19/06/2025
I really honor those people who have seen me being toxíc or being not the person that everybody else expects me to be, yet they still choose to understand and believe in me. I appreciate those people who never try to judge my behavior because they confidently believe that I am a good person. I appreciate those who never invalidate my feelings. I know sometimes it's hard to consider being calm in situations where I always find myself being treated poorly. Sometimes, some people will push me to my limits until I have no other choice but to defend myself. And that is why I always appreciate those people who always choose to respect me, even without hearing my story. I know that a lot of people can judge me based on my wrong behavior, but I also know that there are some people out there who believe that there was a deep reason why I had to behave that way. I admit that I am sometimes a toxíc person to those people who disrespect me and hurt me more than I can bear. I know that it is not right to behave inappropriately, but I also believe that it is not right to tolerate all those people who treat me poorly.
I appreciate those people who have seen my worst side but still chose to ask me if I'm okay instead of telling me how bad I am. There shouldn't be any excuse for anyone's wrong behavior, but I always believe that there are some people out there who don't deserve someone's patience, love, and kindness. Most of the time, I keep my story to myself and never try to explain. But at some point also, some people will just actually show me that even if I don't try to explain myself, they will still stand with me because they know that it takes everything before they see my hatred. Sometimes, my behavior doesn't define me as a whole; it may also define how long I've been enduring being treated badly until I have to show them what they deserve. So I appreciate those people who understand me for doing that. Even if I sometimes choose to be silent, some people are still there to make me realize that my feelings are valid.
— Shiori X