Jehan's Diary

13/06/2026

13/06/2026

“NAGAGALIT KA PA BA?”

I remember being asked that question twice.
And honestly, nagulat ako.

Hindi dahil hindi na ako nagagalit, but because I didn’t realize some people thought I had stopped.

The truth is, if there’s one emotion I’m very familiar with, it’s anger. I grew up with it.

For the longest time, parang default setting ko na sya.

If things didn’t go my way, I got angry.
If someone corrected me, I got angry.
If I didn’t get what I wanted, I got angry.

Looking back, sooooobrang dali kong matrigger. And because of that, I got into a lot of unnecessary conflicts. I hurt people. I damaged relationships.

The funny things is, back then, akala ko talaga everyone else was the problem. Akala ko it was because of what they said. What they did. How they treated me.

But eventually, I had to admit something to myself. The same situation could happen to two different people, and they wouldn’t react the same way.

So maybe the real question wasn’t, “What did they do?”
Maybe the question was, “Why did that affect me so much?”

THAT WAS A HARD QUESTION TO SIT WITH.

Kasi masmadali naman talaga magpoint ng fingers kesa tignan ang sarili.

So nagagalit pa ba ako? OF COURSE! 🙂

I still get annoyed.
I still get frustrated.
I still have bad days.

The difference now is that I catch it faster. Instead of immediately reacting, I get curious.

“Why is this bothering me?”
“What’s really going on here?”

And sometimes I realize that what I’m angry about is not even the real issue. Sometimes it’s pride. Sometimes it’s disappointment. Sometimes it’s an expectation that wasn’t met.

And that’s also when I realized that anger isn’t always a bad thing.
Sometimes it tells us that something matters. Sometimes it tells us that a boundary has been crossed.
Sometimes it’s the reason we finally speak up.
Sometimes it’s what pushes us to make a change.

The problem is not anger.
The problem is when anger becomes the one making all our decisions.
I guess that’s why people think I don’t get angry anymore.

I DO. I just don’t let every emotion become an action. Because not everything we feel needs to be expressed immediately. Some feelings need to be understood first.

I still get angry. I am just doing my best not to give my anger the final say.

05/06/2026

This workshop became really close to my heart, Alhamdulillah. ❤️

I heard stories that are not always talked about, yet these are exactly the stories that deserve our attention. Stories of young people, families, communities, traditions, challenges, hopes, and dreams.

Working alongside IP leaders, religious leaders, youth leaders, women, and community advocates was more than just an experience… IT WAS A PRIVILEDGE! Buong-buo ang pasasalamat ng puso ko for the opportunity to learn from them and with them. 🙇🏻‍♀️

One of the most fulfilling parts for me was seeing ideas turn into action. It was so inspiring to watch them transform their insights into communication materials (flyers, social media content, radio plugs, and sermon outlines) that they can actually bring back and use in their own communities.

As someone who deeply believes in the power of communication, I always say that messages can either build walls or break walls. Kaya soooobrang meaningful sa akin na maibahagi ang mga natutunan ko in communication and public speaking, not just to help people speak better, but to help them create messages that people will listen to, remember, and hopefully act on.

Thank you, Bea Almoite. Grateful to have shared this meaningful learning space with you.

Thank you as well to UNFPA and UNYPHIL-Women for the opportunity to be part of the Social Norms and Behavioral Change (SBC) on Child, Early, and Forced Marriages and Unions (CEFMU) Prevention, particularly the Messaging Workshop. ❤️✨

31/05/2026

First coaching session. Alhamdulillah. 🤍❤️

Gender: Male
Age: 47 yrs old
Status: Single
Occupation: Department Head

Main concern:
He wants his peaceful life back after entering a relationship that brought too much confusion, stress, and emotional exhaustion into his life.

One thing that stood out during our conversation…

Even strong people get tired.
Even people with good careers, responsibilities, and years of experience in life can still feel lost, emotionally drained, or mentally overwhelmed.

And sometimes, the hardest part is not the problem itself. It’s having nobody to genuinely talk to while trying to fix your life quietly.

We talked about the kind of person he wants to become moving forward, the life he wants to rebuild, and the small action steps he can start taking for himself again.

But throughout the whole session, one thing became really clear: HE ALREADY HAD THE ANSWERS WITH HIM. He just needed a safe conversation, proper guidance, and someone willing to walk with him while he figured things out step by step.

There is NOTHING EMBARASSING about asking for help.

Sometimes, being heard properly changes everything. ❤️✨

29/05/2026

Day 2 and finally wrapped up the Q&A Confidence and Authenticity Workshop for the Mutya ng Kutawato 2026 candidates. Alhamdulillah. ✨❤️

I didn’t expect to build such a genuine connection with these beautiful ladies in just two days. There’s a little sepanx knowing the workshop is over, but I also know this is just the beginning of more conversations, growth, and bonding beyond this experience! In Shaa Allah. 😊🫂

I am beyond grateful for the trust and opportunity to mentor them in both personal development and communication. And I’m so happy because deep inside, I stayed true to my goal from the start… to create a space where they can become more grounded, self-aware, confident, and authentic not just on stage, but within themselves too! 🤍

Again, huge thanks to Bruce "BM" Matabalao Cotabato City Government, and the organizers of Mutya ng Kutwato 2026. Looking forward to more collaborations and meaningful partnerships in the future, In Shaa Allah. ❤️

26/05/2026

Day 1.
Q&A Confidence & Authenticity Workshop for Mutya ng Kutawato Candidates. Alhamdulillah. ✨

Usually, workshops like this focus on building confidence… how you speak, how you answer, how you present yourself.

But today, I wanted us to go deeper than that.

Because I honestly believe people become more confident naturally when they know themselves first. Their values, their experiences, their insecurities, and the kind of woman they truly want to become.

I didn’t expect the room to become this emotional today! 🙇🏻‍♀️ There were tears, realizations, and a lot of honest moments. AND MAYBE THAT’S THE POINT.

Sometimes confidence doesn’t start with learning how to speak better. Sometimes it starts with being honest with yourself. 🤍

Thank you Cotabato City Government Bruce "BM" Matabalao and the organizers of Mutya ng Kutawato 2026 for trusting me with this opportunity to guide and connect with these amazing women. Such a very… meaningful experience for me as well! ✨❤️