06/08/2025
I’m in the office right now, AirPods on, music playing and waiting for my Da Vinci Resolved to be fully downloaded. On my fifth refill of my Tumblr today. I’m trying to replace my coffee into plain water. I do really have an oral fixation, my focus is different when there’s substance I can use to stimulate my mind. Lately, I’m tricking my brain to cover up caffeine into something healthier, and it’s effective. You really need to be self-aware. Because it’s the first step to better yourself and combat your tendencies. 2 years ago I was a slave of my fixations, abusing any kind of substance I can see. Now, I’m doing better. I’m grateful for the universe for saving me from sabotaging myself. The universe handed me every circumstances and allowed me to meet people that caused me to fully meet myself- in the rawest and unfiltered state. It’s hard and scary as hell. On my case, it was like opening a shower room and seeing someone naked. I’ve seen the wholeness of my brokenness. I was not ready for it. But forced to confront him and accept him even if it means taking a bitter pill. But I’m grateful, God gave me the strength to carry everything in myself shoulders. Now, I’m confident I can conquer the world for I already conquered myself. Thank you Lord!