06/05/2025
ษช แดสแดแด๊ฑแด แดแดแดแดแด แดแด แดส แดษดสแดสษชษดษข. ๐ซ
I am a people pleaser back then, I don't want other people to hate me, to judge me without any particular reason, I always talk, I always explain my side. I just wanted people to like me, to value me, to appreciate me, to accept me with all I am to the point that I am loosing myself na pala pleasing everyone & dati kase feeling ko it was the healthiest thing to do, Yung walang drama, no negative energy, walang judgment, just full of fun. Akala ko pag-kinausap ko na yung tao, pag kinompronta ko na sila dun na natatapos lahat.
I was wrong pala. I was wrong in believing that everyone & everything needs my attention.
So, getting older I realized, It's okay. It's okay to feel sad, It's okay if other people don't like you, It's okay to ignore, to not giving your full attention especially to unnecessary drama, to not give your full energy to everyone or to anything. Because life goes on, Even without you or without them.
That's why I prayed. I prayed hard & talk to God everything. He listened. He understood. He guide me to the right path, He eliminates those people that is not good for me, He gave me another chance to start over. To be the happiest version of myself, to have peace.
During my late 20's it makes sense, It all makes sense. Dun ko lang napagtanto lahat na; Ay! Kaya pala nangyare to, nangyare yan, kaya pala nawala to, nawala yan kase may rason. You just have to accept it, to embrace it, to feel everything for your own sake din naman, for your future self. And now, I am the happiest & I have my peace in my heart.
That is the reason why I am protecting my inner peace at all cost. Kase ilang taon bago ko 'to na-claim. Dugo't-pawis, Kailangan sobrang tapang mo. And it's all worth it. ๐ค