
01/09/2025
My biggest toxic trait is I know how to love,
but I don’t know how to believe I’m loved.
I can pour out everything I have —
my patience,
my care,
my loyalty,
even the softest parts of me — without hesitation.
But the moment it comes back to me,
I question it.
I overthink it.
I convince myself they don’t mean it,
that maybe they’ll change their mind,
that I’m not really worth the love they say they have for me.
It’s exhausting to live in that contradiction
— being so sure of how I love others
but so unsure of why anyone would choose to love me.