28/10/2025
Over the years, Ive learned to truly EMBRACE, ACCEPT, and LOVE myself. 🥰
Looking back, I grew up with people calling me negra or dark-skinned, bungal or bungi (coz i loved eating sweets), and ugly to name a few. In my younger years, I thought those to be true of myself so I worked hard to please people and gain their favors. I even hated my own name, LOUISE, a classmate in gradeschool said it sounded like a boy's name.
Into teen years, as I discovered more about myself, what I can do, skills I learned, talents I developed, I became confident. It became too much to the point of rebellion- getting back at people who said nasty things about me, who didn't believe in me, and who didn't protect me. I felt I had to prove them all wrong. I was mad.
Then I became a mom, I changed and erased myself, my identity, I did everything for the kids. I worked and excel to provide and even dabbled in many hustles to reach dreams and accomplish as much as I can in my prime.
I recovered my identity with my husband's love and acceptance of who I was and is. But what truly brought me to who I am now is knowing JESUS and it's also through my husband's submission to Christ.
Having Jesus in my life SAVED me from all the self-hate, self-doubt, regrets, and identity crisis I experienced. Because now, my identity is with Him alone.
Now, I'm sure about myself. Yes, imperfect and will never be perfect. But with a clear life purpose, with a loving and accepting family, and with a humble service attitude just like how Jesus was, I've learned to accept, embrace, and love the person I am now. ❤️
