12/05/2026
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๐๐๐๐๐๐ || The Weight of a Gold Medal
"Of course she got a high scoreโ The murmurs echo through the room as the teacher announces the scores to the class. "Of courseโ, a phrase I hear from crowds in every accomplishment I achieve, like it was set to my fate that I was destined to succeed. From an outside perspective, it seems so simpleโeasy even. Some might say that I excel in everything that I do, but is the journey to excellence really the straight path people picture it to be?
When a person builds an image of how they want to be perceived, people often overlook the story that lies beneath it. Not all high achievers were born excellent, most work tirelessly and study endlessly to achieve such greatness. But one thing that they all share in common is feeling the immense pressure that comes from other people's expectations. Once people decide to label us as "smart", thatโs when that title is permanently imprinted on the nooks of our identity. It takes over our lives, keeping us up at night, wondering how to stay consistent and live up to the words written all over our name.
As I walk up the stage to claim my golden medal, I feel the reflection of gold shining through my eyes, and for a moment, I stare at a face I can't seem to recognize. It is the same face I see in the mirror every night before I go to bed at three o'clock in the morning. Sometimes, it feels like a mockery, as if my own reflection is laughing at me and reminding me that this achievement didn't come naturally for me. It was built from hours of endless work and sleepless nights. Every night I lie awake, over analyzing and overthinking just to show up right and play my expected role in this stage play we call life. โCan they see right through my performance?โ โCan they see right through me?โโthese are the questions that haunt me at night.
Maybe this is how it will always be โ fighting silent battles that no one ever sees. People will continue to expect so much from me, but their expectations donโt define who I am. They might never understand the depth of the effort I put into everything I achieve, but deep down, I know that I am enough โ and I am exactly who I need to be.
๐ช๐ข๐ฅ๐๐ฆ ๐๐ฌ : A.M Lux
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ : Kristine Alguno