Juanderful Life

21/06/2025

Spoken Word Poetry

30/04/2025

Goodmorning MAY na naman po bilis ng panahon.
Be Blessed
HAVE A NICE DAY!

30/04/2025

TULALA MUNA HABANG WORK HAHAHA

30/04/2025

Shout out to my newest followers! Excited to have you onboard!

Geoffrey Muyco Intig Lagulao, Rene Intig Lagulao, Leo A Abarca, Prodby GI Real, Bj Delos Reyes, Nanz Here, Andrea Siaga, Gil Evangelista, Angela Buenaventura Ortega, George Siaga

23/04/2025

Basta sa hanapan si mama ang magaling dyan😂

23/04/2025

Keep going be blessed 😇

03/03/2025

it’s hard to explain what’s happening inside your head,when you don’t understand itself.

03/03/2025

If you focus on the hurt you will continue to to suffer.If you focus on the lesson,you will continue to grow.

09/01/2025

20/02/2024

“I cannot afford to fail. I don’t have a backup. I am the backup.”

Saw a post about this and I can’t help but cry.

How can such one statement describe my whole life’s struggle as a breadwinner / back up of the family?

People often tells me —

“Magrelax ka naman, grabe ka mag-grind, bakit ba sobrang sipag mo?”

“Bakit ka naguiguilty magpahinga?
Hindi naman masamang magpahinga?”

This is the answer.

I CAN’T AFFORD TO FAIL.
I DON’T HAVE A BACK UP.
I AM THE BACK UP.

Unlike others — who have parents / relatives who can help them when they fail?

People who have generational wealth.

I have none.
For I am my own back up plan.

Walang sasalo sakin in case I decided to stop working today.

For this reason,
I can’t afford to make that choice.

You know what’s my only choice?
TO ONLY TAKE A STEP FORWARD.

Because every choice.
Every decision.
Every single action.
Carries the weight that I can’t afford to fail.

Hindi ako pwedeng sumuko at matalo.
Kasi walang sasalo. Kailangang manalo.
Para sa pamilya ko.

At hindi ako pwedeng mangarap lamang ng pansarili ko — dahil buhat ko ang pamilya ko.

This is a battleground I fight — not just for me but also for the stability of my family.

Dati — ang hirap tanggapin.

Bakit ako?
I am a child, too.
And this is my first time living this life too.

But as the time goes by.
Only God and the universe can tell.

That there are burdens and crosses.
Pure bliss and unfathomable blessings.

That only those who are the “back up plans” of their family can fully understand.

Naniniwala pa rin ako na at the end of the day —
God sees my pain & sacrifices.
He sees my heart and my intentions.

And there’s no doubt He won’t do anything to turn things into my favor.

PADAYON SA LAHAT NG BACK UP PLAN NG PAMILYA.

Masakit. Mahirap. Nakakapagod.

Kung pwede lang sumuko.

Pero alam nating hindi pwede
Because we carry the weight of the responsibility to get out your family from poverty.

Darating din ang araw.
Hindi na mangangamba kung sasapat ba.
Kasi sobra sobra pa.

Darating din ang araw.
Hindi na magdadalawang isip kung pwedeng magpahinga.
Dahil kayang kaya na.

Sa susunod — hindi na tayo ang back up plan ng pamilya.

Sa susunod — wala ng magiging back up plan sa pamilya.

Yours truly,
Joanna
(Ctto)

19/09/2023

“Kumakapit parin”

Hindi mo alam minsan ang tunay niyang damdamin-
Mahal ka niya pero- parang alanganin,
Na baka mahal ka niya dahil nandiyan ka-
Na mahalaga ka kase kailangan kapa,

Inisip mo na baka ganoon lang talaga siya,
Hindi siya malambing sa tuwing may nakatingin na iba,
Baka guni-guni mo lang yun kawalan sa kanyang mga mata,
Na baka hindi naman talaga pag-ibig ang kanyang dala.

Na baka pumasok lang siya sa buhay mo ng walang kasiguraduhan,
Bahala na ang bukas kung sinong unang lilisan,
Kaya Kumakapit ka parin sa mga ala-alang hatid,
Hindi mo alam ang bitbit nitong pait,

Palagi mong iniisip na baka siya nanga,

Ang hulog ng langit o baka ito ang pumunit sa-
Puso mong marupok na akala lahat ng pag-ibig ay masaya,
Na may panahon ding maiiwan kang mag-isa,

Pinilit mong intindihin at mahalin ang buong pagkatao niya,
Na kahit ang kape ay mahihiyang ipaglaban ka-
Dahil siya na ang kusang sumusuko,kumakapit kapa,
Tahan na,wala na talagang pag-asa,

Kundi,ang bitawan na at lumaya sa mapait na tadhana-
Na hindi lahat ng mahal mo ay mamahalin ka,
Hindi lahat ng iningatan mo ay mananatili pa,
At hindi mo na kailangan lumaban dahil hindi ka madirigma kundi dahil isa kang prinsesa.

Sulat ni:Joanna
Larawan mula sa Pinterest.

10/09/2023

I’ve lost my hope, but I’m still alive.