19/11/2025
May confession ako, I have a unnaturally, or naturally, high s*x drive.
Here's the thing, I, (M,23) have this high s*x drive that I'm not really sure how to properly express. I could say I look above average for a guy. Families, friends, acquittances, and strangers would often compliment me or say things like, "wag kang tumulad sa daddy mo", but that's a whole different can of worms, to "Nakarami ka na siguro" and "Nagpapaiyak ka siguro nang babae". And in response, I'd simply, laugh, smile, nod, or to my closer friends, reply na "kung di lang ako matino, malamang kako may panganay na ko". And there in lies the dilemma I have: I have an admittedly high s*x drive, but my morals, principles, and experiences bar me from doing exactly just that.
Like, during the time I had with my ex. We had our intimate moments, and had did had s*x. But I always refrained from cmming inside her since I don't want to impregnate her. Some might you might suggest, just use a contraceptive. And while that aligns with me morally, my libido wants to, well, fck her to our heart's content. Neither do I want her to use a pills that she doesn't want to or feels uncomfortable using, or worse, abort.
I wasn't able to express that to her until we broke up. And now that I'm single, I wanna look into exploring and go back to flirting, but I'm kinda afraid hurting someone else's feeling just to get what I want out of it. So, I usually end up with neutral responses to any interactions/conversations with women that I'm having or snubbing them entirely. But that doesn't mean I don't want to, it's just that I don't what "THAT" part of me to take over my judgement and affect myself, hers, those people around us that matter moving forward.