Macky

11/06/2026

Recently, I’ve been dealing with my own thoughts and spiritual battles. By God’s strength and grace, I’ve been able to work on both today.

If you’re in the process of healing and find yourself going back and forth with the same feelings, wanting to give up, or feeling like you’re back at square one thinking all the progress you’ve made was for nothing and that you’re all alone, you’re not.

You can cry. You can shout. You can pour your heart out. But don’t forget that you can also kneel.

God is with you through every setback, every tear, every question, and every step forward. Even when you can’t see it, He’s working.
Let's keep going 😊🫂

05/06/2026

I had a fellowship with one of our church mentors. One of the things we talked about was our prayers during struggles and trials. We both shared our desire to rejoice and remain useful in our seasons of waiting and healing.

The next day, during our weekly BST, the topic discussed was: “How do you worship when you don’t feel like worshipping?” with the subtitle, “It’s easy to praise God when everything is fine, but how are you when everything is not?”

In my case, I didn’t worship God when I had everything. In fact, I turned away from Him. It was deliberate, a daily choice. I stopped praying and no longer acknowledged His presence in my life.

When everything was taken away, that’s when I remembered who owns everything in this world, including my life. In the eyes of many, I may have no reason to praise Him. But as far as God is concerned, I have a million reasons. For all that He is and for all that He has already done.

I may not know what the future holds, but I know the one who holds it.

01/06/2026

Braving the rain and every feeling that came with it.

01/06/2026

How does a jobless woman live?

I want to be useful in my waiting season. I don’t want my circumstances to define the way I live. I know this will take a lot of strength, probably more than I have so I pray to God for strength twice every day.

My strength will always have limitations, both physical and emotional. Everything I’m able to do beyond my own capacity is an extension of God’s grace, an answer to my prayers.

I still have joy in the midst of chaos.

Habakkuk 3:17–18
“Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines… yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.”

I have peace that makes no sense.

Philippians 4:7
“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

I won’t be going under.

Psalm 37:23–24
“The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in Him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with His hand.”

I am not held up by my own strength.

Psalm 73:26
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

I put my faith in Jesus. He has never let me down.

Romans 10:11
“Anyone who believes in Him will never be put to shame.”

He is faithful through every season.

Deuteronomy 7:9
“Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; He is the faithful God, keeping His covenant of love to a thousand generations.”

Why would He fail now?

He won’t.

Zephaniah 3:5
“The Lord within her is righteous; He does no wrong. Morning by morning He dispenses His justice, and every new day He does not fail.”

I praise and rejoice not because my situation is perfect, but because my God is.

Everything would be so different if it weren’t for Him.

28/05/2026

I’ve seen people say that mirroring someone’s energy is a form of understanding, accepting that not everyone can give the same love, effort, or care that you do, so you simply give back the same level they give you.

But to me, that’s not understanding. That’s responding.

True understanding comes after consideration. It means taking the time to recognize that people carry different emotional capacities, health conditions, family situations, social environments, experiences, and even educational backgrounds. No two people think, feel, or express themselves the exact same way, not even you and your own mother.

Expecting people to love the way we love or act the way we act will only lead to disappointment.

The way I see it, many people who choose mirroring have been deeply hurt or disappointed after giving their genuine selves to others. And while that response is valid, changing who you truly are may not always be the healthiest way to cope with it.

You should still be who you are, regardless of the people around you. Healing from pain should not mean abandoning your genuine nature. We need to heal from trauma, not build our lives around it.

The world already lacks kindness, sincerity, and genuine care. It needs more people who are willing to love deeply without being ashamed of being called “someone who cares too much.”

15/05/2026

Today's reading.
Numbers chapter 11.

Moses was exhausted and burdened by the responsibility of leading the Israelites on their journey to the Promised Land. He turned to God and asked with complete honesty, showing his frustration, and God answered him and provided reinforcement.

Sometimes, I feel guilty for how I feel and tell myself I have no right to feel that way, so I shut myself down. I’m afraid to disappoint God with my worries and fears, and with the subtle doubt that my situation might be too big for Him.

Today’s take:
Moses was honest, and so should I.
God has all the answers. All I need to do is ask.

12/05/2026

A good podcast to watch.

There was a time when I hated this country. Nothing seemed to be done correctly. We don’t have strict qualifications for public servants, yet we require a bachelor’s degree for jobs that can actually be done without one. We can’t seem to put public officials behind bars no matter how strong the evidence of corruption and criminal activity is, yet an old man can experience jail time for getting a mango fruit from his neighbor’s tree.

Public servants who were elected and swore to serve the people live luxurious lifestyles using taxpayers’ hard-earned money, while people in hospitals are dying in line waiting for subsidies to be approved. Students and teachers suffer under low to almost nonexistent budgets just to sustain quality education.

I remember saying
"Nakakapagod maging Pilipino.”
“Wala nang pag-asa ang Pilipinas.”

Behind those words, though, I also see people doing what they can to help. From libreng tubig, libreng bigas, libreng gulay, mini pantries, discounted gas for drivers, and even libreng gas, to random people sharing videos of fellow citizens needing help, mga nasunugan, may sakit, o namatayan and strangers stepping in to help raise funds.

It reminds me of my duty, not just as a citizen of this country, but as a believer.

It brings me back to the phrase:
"Become part of the solution.”

As a human, it is easy for me to be angry and to stay angry. Losing hope makes sense with everything happening around. When I am hurt and when there is injustice, anger feels justified. But as a believer, I am called to be a carrier of the “hope of glory,” to bring hope into a broken world through faith in Jesus Christ, our ultimate Living Hope.
This hope encourages to live with expectation and to share God’s love with a suffering world.

In the Bible, specifically 1 Timothy 2:1–2, believers are instructed to pray for their leaders, regardless of their character or actions.

While it is easier for me to complain, curse, wish them bad luck, and even pray that Kara David’s birthday wish will be granted, I am reminded that repaying evil with evil is not what I am called to do. Instead, I am called to pray for their guidance, clarity, and transformation of heart because I believe that God can heal anything. He is all-encompassing, and even if I cannot place my trust and hope in today’s leaders, I know I can place my faith in Christ and not underestimate the power of prayer.

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