02/08/2023
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In my head
It is dark tonight
I’m all alone
There is no light
I’m loosing sleep
It’s hard to rest
With all of this stuff
This stuff on my chest
All of this sh*t
That’s on my mind
Where is the button?
I want a rewind
Or even a pause
Just for a break
Sure would be nice
To stop some of this ache
I thought I was good
I thought I was healing
But on the inside
I am still reeling
It’s here one day
And gone the next
Why does everything
Have to be so complex?
All I seek
Is some peace and quiet
Instead of just
This constant riot
The night is silent
But my mind is loud
Although I am alone
In my head is a crowd
I cup my hands
On my ears
But then I have nothing
To wipe my tears
From my face
Running down my cheek
Why do my eyes
Always seem to leak?
I feel sad
All of the time
Like my life
Is not really mine
I am just holding on
A roller coaster I’m in
Why do I feel like
My existence is a sin?
I try to be happy
But I just can’t be
Maybe it
Is no longer within me
My fake smile
Is getting heavy to wear
I don’t know why I bother
It’s not like they care
No one does
Not even you
They never do
Maybe I should stop too
I am sick of trying
I am tired of crying
On the inside
I am slowly dying
You can tell in my eyes
I’m not really smiling
If you paid attention
You would see I am lying
And when I say I’m ok
I am also lying
Because it is easier
Than being
An inconvenience
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Although I have previously been here
This is not my current state of mind
You are NOT alone
Be strong
Reach out if you need help
Many people do care and love you
No matter how alone you feel
Speak up and talk to someone
You will see…
Blessings to all ❤️🙏🏼
~SHOOTY~
SHOOTYS SCRIBBLE SPOT
©️ 23/1/2022
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