05/02/2026
The past few months have really humbled me. I came to realize that I’m not as kind as I thought I was. I get annoyed so easily by inconveniences, I struggle with pride, I get irritated quickly, and I sometimes become hateful and doubtful toward the people around me. It humbled me even more when I realized that other people are often kinder than I am, and that I’m not living up to the kindness I expect from myself.
Last Sunday, during the worship service, I found myself spiritually sitting at the feet of God. I cried out, “Forgive me, Lord, for my heart is evil. Forgive me, Lord. I’m sorry.”
In that moment, I felt God’s presence, like He truly heard me. And by faith, I believe that He forgave me. My heart was filled with peace.
Even so, the realization stayed with me. It made me see how much I truly need God in my life every day, and how much I need His Spirit to change me from the inside out.
Without God, I can be such an awful person. Even when people don't notice, God still sees the heart. Sometimes, we don’t say or do anything obviously wrong, yet when our hearts are filled with pride, anger, or hate, it still displeases Him.
This realization didn’t come from myself alone. It came through the quiet work of the Holy Spirit in me. Because without God, we’re not only broken, we’re also unaware.
Indeed, being a Christian isn’t an overnight transformation. It’s a day-by-day life of repentance. That’s why we need to stay alert, not become complacent, seek God daily, and keep praying.
But thanks be to God, who patiently sanctifies us and keeps changing us, grace by grace. 🤍
Jane Garcia - Mang 🤍
