Giant Triggers

12/09/2025

I can't think of anything to post. But here is a post.

03/09/2025

My baby sister back in the States just turned 16 a few days ago. The last time I saw her, she was still working on potty training and learning the alphabet and I took her to a playland with slides and a huge ball pit. NOW I'M SUDDENLY GIVING HER DATING ADVICE?!?! I'm not old... I can't be old... Not yet 😭

(Also, the crazy big sister is the sister she has. This'll have to do)

23/08/2025

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23/08/2025

I had to swing by the psych ER last night because at 8pm I realized I forgot to pick up my meds from the pharmacy that doesn't open until Monday so I'd be unmedicated all weekend if I couldn't get them to give me some meds to hold me over. Last time that happened... Let's just say... It didn't go well 😆

I got all of my meds except my ADHD meds for some reason causing me to not get out of bed until 7:30 pm today.

The fact that somebody obviously beat the ever loving s**t out of the "Psychiatric Emergency Unit" with their bare hands and they just left it that way because maybe they know they deserve it is just... Visual poetry.

22/08/2025

I have a mode on my phone called "F**k off world". With one push of a button, it puts the phone on Do Not Disturb, turns off WiFi and mobile data, blocks access to all apps except Spotify, Samsung Health (so my watch can track my sleep), and my alarm clock, dims the screen to the lowest setting, and puts everything in black and white. I can almost go off grid while still having access to my music and basic phone functions. Great for when I'm really pi**ed at someone 😆

If this comment section goes as crazy as it did on tiktok, yall are about to learn so much from each other 🥳🥳

21/08/2025

Sometimes, the hair, the makeup, the outfit... are 💯👌 and you wanna plaster it all over social media. Go for it! Rock it!

And some days... You're a total mess, you keep thinking you forgot to remove your mascara last night when you see yourself in the mirror until you realize that's just dark circles and you haven't worn makeup in forever, you have no idea when you last showered or ate a nutritious meal, and you're not sure if you've been ugly crying for two hours yet but definitely well over one and you're pretty sure your neighbors are gonna call the cops if you don't stick a sock in it soon...

Nobody posts those days on social media. And you don't have to. I'm doing it for you. You all know I'm a chronic oversharer, that's how you got here. Share my selfie with all your friends so they have to see me doing it instead of you, because it's okay when you have those days too. They should see that.

We got this, gang 🤜🤛

20/08/2025

A spontaneous trip into the forest yesterday. I should brought paper to wipe away the sweat. And better hiking shoes. And not worn shorts considering all the stinging nettles and other scratchy things and bugs that bite and sting.

But I don't regret a thing, because nothing rejuvenates my soul like venturing into the wilderness with the dog I raised, feeling that unbroken connection we've been building his whole life, even if we now live apart. I carry a leash in case, but I never have to put it on him.

Seeing him run wild, be his true self, and knowing I can trust him, that's everything. That's the dream I had when we decided to get a dog.

I can't navigate to save my life, literally, so he helps me find our way back, all I have to do is say "go to the car" and follow him. If I'm having trouble making my way across the terrain (we don't follow trails), I say "I'm scared, stay close" and he lets me hold onto him for stability.

We were making our way through an overgrown and uneven clearing when he stopped and sat down. I caught up to him and said, "come on", but he wouldn't budge, just stared at the forest ahead. I tried to keep walking, but he got in front of me and sat down. He gave me a serious look, then looked towards the forest. I said, "what is it?". He kept staring. So I held my breath and stood totally still, and I heard it. Slow, heavy footsteps. Not human. They were coming from the direction in which he had locked his focus. I whispered, "okay. Tell me when it's safe". I waited next to him for a few minutes. I couldn't hear any more steps, but I watched his gaze follow the sound I couldn't hear, moving away from us. Eventually he stood up, and with a wagging tail, continued to lead me towards the car.

Had he not been there, maybe I would have come face to face with a huge and angry moose. Or worse, an aggressive wild boar. But that's okay. Because if he hadn't been there, I wouldn't have been there.

He gets me out, into a place of peace. He shows me interesting sticks and muddy creeks and cool mushrooms and stunning rock formations and soft moss. Those things make me feel so much better than alcohol, a toxic relationship, money problems, abandonment issues... None of which I think about when it's just our four paws and two feet moving off the beaten path beneath the pines.

19/08/2025

My hair is still intact. Messy, but still all there. Bailey is glad for that, because what would he chew on to help me fall asleep during sleepovers at my place?

As all of us with and know, we get crazy impulses and many of them pass. I didn't actually want to shave my head. I would have regretted it, which I knew even then. The buzzcut look ain't for me, so I'll let the ones who like it rock it instead 😎

But I still don't regret my trashy 🚩

18/08/2025

Hey. Y'all. Should I shave my head? Wouldn't have as much repercussions as the I guess but it would be pretty funny. I can't see any cons. But I probably would once my BAV goes down. But like... It's almost 5 am so you better hurry up and encourage me to shave off my pretty ok hair before I pass out with the dog I only get to borrow (because my ex husband has leverage over me amd will never let it go) in my arms. I have the stuff to do it and everything. From temu, which seems to be my brand these days, even though I swore Id never buy that sheot . I gotta get lika a lotta likes and comments before I ever take clippers to my head. Because I ain't never done that. My mom told me girls don't have short hair. And my ex husband told me he would love me less if I ddi. Maybe I should t care about people in the past but it leaves its damn trace

I wanna shave mah fu**in head

18/08/2025

You can actually teach your dog to find your addictive substances for you. Bailey (the dog I share with my ex husband) and I have nailed "where's the snus" in case I lose my can of ni****ne pouches (which I do constantly, just like you smokers probably lose your lighters). So useful 😌

12/08/2025

My ex husband/current bestie turns 41 today! 🥳🥳

I couldn't afford to buy a gift this year, but hey, hand made gifts are higher status... Right?

Giving him duck-themed birthday gifts has always been a "thing" with us and just because this is his first birthday since the divorce doesn't mean I'm gonna let the tradition die!

During this year he finally received his ADHD diagnosis and medication and has been doing a lot of self discovery and healing. So this ADHDuck is for you, Oskar! Happy birthday! 🎂

10/08/2025

I wouldn't be sitting here in my underwear at midnight ACTUALLY WRITING ACTUAL TEXT if it weren't for all of the encouragement and support of my new friends and fans!

Look at all that, you guys! YOU did that! You woke up the author in me, dragged her out of bed, and put her back behind the keyboard.

Here's a very blurry sneak peek of something that might not be anything, but it's a start!