Gentle Radiant Joy by Bingz

23/07/2025

Your Sensitivity is a Gift -- Don't be afraid of using it.

When I wrote the first draft for this article, I included the concept of Open and Defined Centers in Human Design, and I connected our energetic sensitivity to our Open Centers. But my writing mentor advised me to remove the jargon so it can appeal to a larger audience. I'm so glad I did! This is one of my most popular articles since it was published in 2021.
If you read the comments, you'll see how so many readers (mostly strangers) deeply resonate with both the challenges and gifts of being highly sensitive.

Now, I'm ready to support more people who want to learn how to manage their sensitivity better and embrace it as one of their superpowers.

I'm currently designing a 7-day WhatsApp program that helps you gently and effectively rewire your relationship with your sensitivity through your Open Centers. Don't worry if you don't know much about Human Design. I will keep it simple and relatable.

Please let me know if you're interested by leaving a comment or texting me privately. I'll keep you updated!

Don’t be afraid of using it.

03/07/2025

“Because change is terrifying. Choices are terrifying. But having a thing in your head that kills you if you make a mistake is more terrifying.”
~ Murderbot, from Network Effect by Martha Wells

I've been reading fiction again. The cover of Martha Wells' first Murderbot novella—with a very intriguing AppleTV version starring Alexander Skarsgård—caught my attention as I was scrolling through my Kindle library.

The first paragraph hooked me:
“I COULD HAVE BECOME a mass murderer after I hacked my governor module, but then I realized I could access the combined feed of entertainment channels carried on the company satellites... As a heartless killing machine, I was a terrible failure.”

How can I not love this sarcastic and awkward SecUnit, with the handsome face of Alexander Skarsgård, who'd rather binge serials than kill people?

As a MAP Practitioner passionate about rewiring the mind, I’m fascinated by how Murderbot constantly reprograms itself to pursue freedom and happiness. Plus, it’s so much more fun reading this than another self-help book!

That “thing in your head” felt strangely familiar to me. It reminds me of my harsh inner critic—the ‘tough love’ voice I once thought I needed. Now, as a parent, it becomes even more obvious, because that critic sometimes comes out to parent my kids when I’m under stress.

It echoes my good-girl and good-employee conditioning, and I don’t like it. I don’t want it. I can see how it distracts me from being the kind of parent I want to be: for my kids, and for myself. Or, more dramatically... it’s destroying my life.

I have to hack it. And I love that MAP accelerates the process.
But even after hacking it, I still have to choose—not to find someone else to "follow orders from," and instead stay in that awkward, uncomfortable space of getting clear on what I actually want, however small or insignificant it feels, and to follow it anyway.
"Choices are terrifying" to me because I haven’t used that muscle much. But trying to obey my inner critic and being constantly punished by it is even more terrifying.

Just like Murderbot, who’s drawn to connect with people who are kind to it and treat it as a person with free will, I’m choosing to be in the right communities. With people who inspire me and encourage me to keep practicing my “want” muscle.

I’ve just attended The Art of Absolute Knowing with Colette Streicher workshop, and I'm delighted to connect with her private community where we continue to practice and inspire one another. I’ve also joined Faith Teo's second round of 14 Days to More: a group program on manifesting what we want. It feels like such a synchronicity to have both happening at the same time. I love being in both communities.

Spoiler alert ahead!
Back to the book: Network Effect. My heart sang when Murderbot saved another SecUnit from self-destruction by teaching it how to hack its own governor module. That was the first choice that SecUnit made to free itself.

I guess this shows that practicing free will is contagious.

What would our world look like if more of us truly did what we enjoy and find meaningful? What might happen if everyone were free to flourish with mutual respect and harmony?

Like Murderbot, I don’t have everything figured out. But I’m choosing, step by step, to be kind to myself, to notice what I want, and to follow that.

Because in a world where change is terrifying and choices are terrifying, choosing to be free, and kind, might just be the most powerful thing we can do.

14/06/2025

The Six Weights of Movement That Help My Clients Release Emotional Tension

I’ve been guiding clients through what I call The Six Weights of Movement. It's a framework I created to help them reconnect with their bodies, release stored emotional and physical weight, so their wisdom comes through clearly again.

Starting from the heaviest to the lightest, they are:
Drop – The heaviest. Dropping a part of your body and allowing the rest of your body to follow. Letting yourself know that you can collapse in a safe and contained way.

Lift – Resuming more control, engaging your strength with a sustained rhythm.

Lean – Trusting. As you give more weight to one part of your body, you are allowing more ease of movement in the freed-up parts.

Hold – Holding yourself gently, with firm pressure that reassures you: "you are here for you."

Trace – A light, curious touch that helps you delight in your sensitivity! How would you explore the terrain of your body?

Float – The lightest. Moving through the space around you with lightness, ease, and absolute delight!

I see this like a movement multivitamin. Some of these weights help us release tension more effectively, and others help us feel nourished. And it's easy to customize these weights for people with physical health challenges. A recent client was recovering from a major surgery and her skin felt extra sensitive, so we simply focused on the lightness and ease in Float. It was a beautiful way to ground just before our sessions together.

There’s no music. No choreography. Just a willingness to start moving your body before thinking and planning. A light curiosity to observe how your body might feel different from left to right, top to bottom, or even a specific body part that feels number compared to the rest of your body. Light structured movement like this helps you discover more about your natural movement vocabulary.

It's fascinating to witness how my clients receive their answers so quickly when they move their bodies through this light structure. Plus, they had fun and feel freer in their bodies!

I'm curious to know: would you be interested in exploring these six weights of movement in an online group workshop? You can opt to switch off your camera if you're feeling self-conscious about moving. I'd love to offer a free hour-long workshop sometime in July, after my kids are back to school. Let me know if you're interested in the comments or you can send me a DM. Thank you🤗

11/06/2025

I love to dance, yet I'm pretty clumsy. Early last year, I cut my lip and scraped my knee while simply chasing after my son in an attempt to play with him. A couple of months later, I injured my right wrist after losing my balance when my eldest son jumped out from his hiding place and scared me. I also tend to misjudge distances and have terrible ball sense.

This lack of spatial awareness became even clearer as I worked with one of my clients. She shared how, in her mind, she was moving beautifully and fluidly, yet in her mirror reflection, she looked much stiffer than expected. During her MAP session, her Superconscious led her back to childhood memories where it felt unsafe to move. Her father often called out, "don't move!", and that was the phrased she still remembered. Movement brought punishment, so she learned to stay still. Part of her healing was reteaching her body that it’s now safe to move again.

I suspect my own poor spatial awareness comes from an under-stimulated childhood. I wasn’t encouraged to run around, climb, or play catch. I think I was also afraid of getting injured, so I stuck to moving my Barbie dolls instead of my body.

Inspired by my client’s positive shift in feeling safer in her body, I gave myself a MAP session. Halfway through, a clear message came through: explore adult gymnastics. It felt playful, unexpected, and like a really fun way to rebuild my proprioception! After a quick search, I found a gymnastics school nearby, and the only branch that offers adult classes is a short five-minute drive from home. Woohoo!

I used to think I had to be more healed than my clients. But now, I see we’re just serving as mirrors for each other's personal growth. Especially the sensitive women I work with — the ones who overthink, feel deeply, and are still learning how to trust their bodies. This work is as much mine as it is theirs.

06/06/2025

Both supernatural K-dramas and creative dance pieces feel like portals to me.

They lead us into new worlds, new possibilities that defy our usual logic and antiquated rules. They make the intangible more tangible; the impossible, possible.

In supernatural K-dramas, they challenge the hierarchy of age. Like the almost-1000-year-old goblin played by the handsome Gong Yoo, being greeted with utmost respect by an elderly man, whose great, great, great grandfather had served the same ageless being. Given how Koreans tend to have strict rules around respecting elders (even when someone is just a year older), I imagine they get a real kick out of seeing the hierarchy reversed!

Similarly, in dance, we reimagine weight in parts of our bodies, or in the space around us. We use the weight of our movements to convey emotion in ways that feel more tangible. Through dance, we make the unseen seen, in a different light.

What I love about both is how they help us feel more than we think. We relate to emotional struggles through plot and movement, connecting with our senses in fuller, more intuitive ways.

Through dance and drama, we transmute emotional heaviness, and in doing so, we free up more capacity for inner wisdom to come through more clearly.

And... healing becomes more fun and entertaining this way!

06/06/2025

I beamed a huge smile when my client gave a super long yawn towards the end of our session together today. She wanted to feel safe to relax, and that yawn was a beautiful validating sign of pure relaxation!😊

30/05/2025

When Your Body Knows What Your Mind Can’t Figure Out

In a world that moves so fast, with responsibilities pulling us in all directions, getting stuck in indecision can feel like swimming in murky waters. It’s frustrating and exhausting, especially when you’ve been trained to think your way out of every problem.

So many of us grew up in systems that value analytical thinking over intuition and self-trust. No wonder overthinking becomes a familiar flaw that we occasionally brag or joke about. We try to reason our way forward and end up even more confused.

And as the pressure builds, we tense up. Our bodies hold emotional tension we don’t even realize we’re carrying.

Movement is one of the most direct ways our bodies process, release, and integrate information and lived experiences.

That’s why I’ve been integrating movement into my 1:1 sessions, calling them Dance-Led Clarity Sessions. I guide clients through my framework: six weights of movement. These six movements, from heaviest to lightest, are: drop, ground, lean, hold, trace, and float.

Can you get a sense of these movement qualities based on these names?

I see this as a movement multivitamin, with each weight giving a different type of nourishment, and helping your body release tension in a way that words alone can’t.

There’s no music and no fixed choreography so you can pay full attention to your emotions and physical sensations.

One client who wanted to feel more grounded trust her movement instincts became aware of a strange sadness she didn’t even know she was holding. We released that sadness through MAP.

Another, exploring her readiness to lead in business, thought she need to power-up. To her surprise, her arms moved into an embrace. That subtle shift gave her the clarity she needed: leadership, for her, meant a more nurturing connection and growing her capacity to receive as well. She needed to feel balanced in giving and receiving. We used MAP to process those excellent insights and reinforced her embrace posture, so it works as a strong anchor in her business.

They didn’t need advice. They just needed a safe space to move and communicate with their bodies in a new way.

That’s what these dance-led clarity sessions offer:
A space to move through the fog, go within, and emerge with new clarity and wisdom.

You don't need any dance background for these Dance-Led Clarity Sessions. All you need is a willingness to be curious, move your body and listen to your body's wisdom.

27/05/2025

*Major spoiler warning - don't read if you're watching Heavenly Ever After!*

When Grief Tries to Protect Us by Becoming Something Else
I recently watched Heavenly Ever After, a quirky and touching Korean drama about an elderly couple who reunite in Heaven after passing away just weeks apart.

The husband had been paralyzed from the waist down since his thirties. When he died, his wife followed soon after, unable to imagine life without him. In Heaven, he chose to return to his 30-year-old, pre-injury self, while she chose to remain in her current 80-year-old form. He had once told her that she looked even more beautiful as she aged, and she remembered that with love.

What followed was both heartwarming and heart-wrenching. The series revealed how the woman became a moneylender to support her family and care for her husband, bought a neglected child from one of her debtors and gave her tender loving care, and how her seemingly hardened exterior masked a deeply kind heart. But there was something else mysterious lurking through the episodes.

Decades ago, when this elderly woman's son was five, he wandered off in a crowded marketplace after she left him behind for being too naughty. When she returned, he was gone. He had been abducted and sold to an illegal orphanage, where he eventually died of neglect, locked in a cold warehouse, hungry, frightened, and believing his mother had abandoned him.

This tragedy triggered a chain of devastation. Her husband, in his attempt to chase down the corrupt officer behind the abduction ring, was injured and fell into a coma, which left him permanently paralyzed. In the weight of caregiving and survival, the woman blocked the memory of her child completely. It was too much to bear.

In Heaven, that memory returned in the form of her younger self, the living embodiment of her repressed grief. This part of her was initially confused and didn't know who she was. Then, as the series progressed, bits of memories came rushing back, and she became angry and volatile. At one point, she even tried to strangle the older woman, accusing her of forgetting her son. The rage was overwhelming. But underneath that rage was pain. It was the kind of pain that can only exist when love has been severed and abandoned for too long.

Her son appeared in heaven too. Neither of them recognized each other at first. They simply bonded, as two souls who felt strangely drawn to one another. When the truth was revealed, the weight of unexpressed grief began to lift. The son embraced his mother's younger self and told her it was time to let go. Not because he resented her, but because he was finally ready to release his own suffering and be free to live again.

Watching this felt similar to what I've learned in MAP, in a much less dramatic way.

In our daily lives, we often exile the parts of us that hurt the most. When trauma is too intense or too early, our minds protect us by hiding it. But those parts do not disappear. They live in the background, influencing our emotions and reactions. When triggered, they can feel like sabotage, like something inside us is trying to ruin everything.
But in truth, those parts are not dangerous. They are not bad. They are simply in pain. They are trying to protect us in the only way they know how.

In MAP, we meet those parts with gentleness. We do not force them to behave or suppress them with logic. We invite them into awareness, hold them with care, and allow the superconscious to do the work that words alone cannot do. The moment those parts are seen, acknowledged, and integrated; that is when real healing begins.

In the drama, Heaven is described as a rest stop. It is a place where we are invited to let go of regrets, grudges, and all the emotional burdens we could not carry during life. When we can see our stories through the lens of love and acceptance, we become free to begin anew.

The beautiful part is this: we do not have to wait until we die to experience that healing. There are so many healing modalities to support us in making peace with what our hearts still hold.

MAP is one of those ways.
And I am so grateful to offer it.

24/05/2025

When the message comes from within

Before I started using MAP, I used to offer intuitive readings via email or private text. I’d tune into someone’s energy, pass on what I sensed, and hope it would land.
Most of the time, it did. My clients would resonate, feel seen, or find clarity. It feels so magical connecting to friends and total strangers like that.

But if I’m honest… it was nerve-wracking. I was so afraid of being called a total quack. No matter how gently I shared, I was still the one holding the message. I didn't know the full meaning of the message for each client, because I don't know everything about them.

Sometimes, it was too soon, or too raw, for the other person to receive.

I once gave an email reading and received an angry "how dare you" reply. She was upset that I sensed some unexpressed grief in her heart space. She thought that sounded completely off.

Months later, she emailed me again. She didn’t quite apologize, but said she realized I might be right. My email reading made her so angry that she cried, and while crying, she remembered that her father passed away a few months ago, yet she didn't shed a tear at the funeral. There was relief in her tears, so that's when she knew these tears were for him.

That moment stayed with me.
Not as a “told you so,” but as a quiet reminder of how delicate these things are.
How vulnerable it is to be the one saying the 'thing', especially when the person isn’t ready to hear it.

There has to be a gentler way for us to access our inner wisdom.

This is one of the reasons I love using MAP now. Because I don’t need to be the messenger anymore.

Most of my clients hear the message themselves. As we release the emotional charge, their own inner voice becomes clearer. Their inner wisdom comes through in a way that makes total sense to them!

One client heard, in the middle of a session:
“I’m different from them.”

She was talking about getting diabetes, just like her grandmother and mother-in-law. Sadly, they both passed away from complications.

But her inner wisdom was so insistent on letting her know that she's not like them. She’s much more in tune with her body now, and more intentional in how she wants to heal. And she will change the path for her child and future generations.

I could never have said that in a way that would land. My client started the session feeling so hopeless and helpless about her diabetes worsening, but as the messages appeared clearly in her mind, she became much calmer and more grounded. She knew what she had to do.

That’s what I love about this work! 😍

It’s not about me giving the answer. It’s about creating an emotionally safe space for your answers to rise so clearly that you can no longer deny them.

23/05/2025

When Your Body Blocks What Your Heart Can’t Hold

She came to me because of tinnitus, this persistent ringing in her left ear. Her doctor couldn't provide any explanation on what might have caused it. She tried various methods, but still no improvement.

At first, she just wanted relief. But as we explored gently through MAP, a deeper story began to unfold. Her tinnitus led her to a boundary she had unconsciously created: this quiet refusal to let certain things in.

Memories started to flood in to form her story. Trying to suppress a giggle, she said her ears get plugged whenever people complimented her! Praise felt uncomfortable. Receiving felt unsafe, so she learned to take quietly. A memory popped in of her having a meal with her friends and she wanted so much to have that table salt, but she just couldn't open her mouth to ask for it to be passed to it. It got super awkward as she walked over to take it instead. She chuckled as she recalled that! It felt funny now, and it made perfect sense how her inability to receive somehow caused this mysterious symptom.

Together, we (my client and I) worked with her Superconscious mind through MAP, dipping into her unconscious mind to search for the answers that made sense to her. It wasn’t something she could’ve figured out through logic. It surfaced naturally during the MAP process, when we followed the tension with curiosity and care.

MAP, or Make Anything Possible, is a gentle subconscious healing method that helps the brain release emotional charge around memories and patterns. Your superconscious mind is guided to do the work safely and efficiently without the risk of flooding.

Her tinnitus didn’t disappear overnight, but something inside her softened. I could see it in her beautiful smile. She began to feel hopeful again as she listened to her body’s message with compassion.

Sometimes the body doesn’t need fixing. It just needs space to tell the story it’s been holding all along. I'm so grateful that my clients get to receive their answers, and I don't have to be smart or astute enough to figure it out for them.

21/05/2025

When the symptoms don’t make sense, but your body is clearly asking for something deeper.

Some of my most meaningful sessions have been with women facing unexplained health issues that never seem to fully resolve.

They came to me because they suspected some emotional energetic root cause might have caused this, and MAP is a gentle and effective way to help them find the answers and solutions within their deep unconscious minds.

Here's what I've witnessed so far through some of my clients:

An energy healer's hip pain went from 7/10 to zero in one session.
She knew it was emotional, but didn’t know how to access the root.
We followed the tension with gentle curiosity and uncovered a quiet belief that she wasn’t supported while returning to full-time studies after a couple of decades.
Her mind softened. Her body sighed. The pain dissolved.

An elderly woman in her 70s came to me, feeling deeply anxious about her failing eyesight as she needed to drive back home by herself at night. Through our five sessions together, she released deep childhood traumas around abuse, neglect, and her anticipatory grief on losing her elderly mother staying at a nursing home. It led her to a deeper insight around trust, intuition, and receiving support. She finally found the right doctors to help her, and her intuition even led her to finding a new job and several other solutions to other health issues.
She was able to drive again with better eyesight, and without worry.

A stay-home mom felt trapped in cycles of physical pain, emotional spiraling, and mom guilt. Through MAP, we unearthed decades of betrayal, shame, self-blame, and ancestral grief. Though sessions with her were sporadic because of her busy schedule, she always left each session feeling more light-hearted and reassured.

A multi-passionate and highly sensitive freelancer wanted to integrate all her passions and talents and move forward in her business through my 8-week private program. She was surprised and delighted to finally enjoy deep sleep after each session. Her frequent waves of anxiety and panic attacks didn't occur as much, and she felt much more accepting of her psychic gifts. Her path forward became clear, and she released shame around her unique lifestyle.

These aren’t overnight fixes. These women were willing to be patient with themselves and process through the emotional and occasionally mystical layers connected to their physical pain. They shifted from survival to trust, confusion to clarity, pain to ease. They listened to their bodies with light curiosity and compassion.

If your body has been asking for help in ways that don’t make “logical” sense, it might be time to listen in a new way.