04/10/2012
Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You
come home from school one day.
You've had yet another horrible day.
You’re just ready to give up. So you go
to your room, close the door, and take
out that su***de note you've written
and rewritten over and over and over
You take out those razor blades, and
cut for the very last time. You grab that
bottle of pills and take them all. Laying
down, holding the l letter to your chest,
you close your eyes for the very last
time. A few hours later, your little
brother knocks on your door to come
tell you dinners ready. You don’t
answer, so he walks in. All he sees is
you laying on your bed, so he thinks
you’re asleep. He tells your mom this.
Your mom goes to your room to wake
you up. She notices something is odd.
She grabs the paper in your hand and
reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you
up. She’s screaming your name. Your
brother, so confused, runs to go tell
Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy
won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your
room. He looks at your mom, crying,
holding the letter to her chest, sitting
next to your lifeless body. It hits him,
what’s going on, and he screams. He
screams and throws something at the
wall. And then, falling to his knees, he
starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to
him, and they sit there, holding each
other, crying. The next day at school,
there’s an announcement. The
principal tells everyone about your
su***de. It takes a few seconds for it to
sink in, and once it does, everyone
goes silent. Everyone blames
themselves. Your teachers think they
were too hard on you. Those mean
popular girls, they think of all the things
they've said to you. That boy that used
to tease you and call you names, he
can’t help but hate himself for never
telling you how beautiful you really are.
Your ex boyfriend, the one that you
told everything to, that broke up with
you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks
down and starts crying, and runs out
of the school. Your friends? They’re
sobbing too, wondering how they
could never see that anything was
wrong, wishing they could have helped
you before it was too late. And your
best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t
believe it. She knew what you were
going through, but she never thought
it would get that bad… Bad enough for
you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t
feel anything. She stands up, walks out
of the classroom, and just sinks to the
floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears
coming out. It’s a few days later, at
your funeral. The whole town came.
Everyone knew you, that girl with the
bright smile and bubbly personality.
The one that was always there for
them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of
people talk about all the good
memories they had with you, there
were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little
brother still doesn't know you killed
yourself, he’s too young. Your parents
just said you died. It hurts him, a lot.
You were his big sister, you were
supposed to always be there for him.
Your best friend, she stays strong
through the entire service, but as soon
as they start lowering your casket into
the ground, she just loses it. She cries
and cries and doesn't stop for days. It’s
two years later. The whole school talks
to a counselor/therapist at least once a
week. Your teachers all quit their job.
Those mean girls have eating disorders
now. That boy that used to tease you
cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn't
know how to love anymore and just
sleeps around with girls. Your friends
all go into depression. Your best
friend? She tried to kill herself. She
didn't succeed like you did, but she
tried… your brother? He finally found
out the truth about your death. He self
harms, he cries at night, he does
exactly what you did for years leading
up to your su***de. Your parents? Their
marriage fell apart. Your dad became a
workaholic to distract himself from
your death. Your mom got diagnosed
with depression and just lays in bed all
day. People care. You may not think so,
but they do. Your choices don’t just
effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t
end your life, you have so much to live
for. Things can’t get better if you give
up. We are here for absolutely anyone that
needs to talk, no matter who you are.
Even if we've NEVER talked before, We are
here for you. There are so many
people out there that care. Yes, we
definitely care. So talk to us if you
need to ♥
