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06/26/2026

Calm it down

“Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm, and steadfast.”
1 Peter 5:8-10 (niv)

Do you ever have days where everything feels like it is all falling apart? I’m talking explosion after explosion…9.7 earthquake knockin you over….burning those ships downnnnn.
Well, same, friend, same.

I finally gave up on adulting today. I woke up with anxiety, I felt a little better after Bible study this morning and time with friends, but it picked right back up when everyone left. I tried to work through it all day and I feel like I have been saying over and over, “Lord, help me.”, since 5:02 a.m. So, I finally quit working and laid on the couch and doom scrolled. Some people call it “rotting”, I call it “I fully can’t function anymore or make another decision or worry about another outcome so I will lay here and zone out under this quilt and give up.”

I have finally reached the point in my life that I am tired of the struggle. It has been years, YEARS, y’all, of just one thing after another. And I am at the point of giving up. I am trying to be obedient. I am trying to trust. Deep down I know I shouldn’t complain because God has proven faithful with every circumstance, He has provided at the last minute, He has brought me this far…but COME ON!! Can I just have a full week without something coming up to steal my peace? Can I have just one day that I don’t have to piece together how I am going to pay an upcoming bill? Ugh.

But as I was laying there gleaning wisdom off of the Pastors of TikTok, one message stood out to me and so, of course, I had to look up the verse and break it down.

“Be alert and of sober mind….”
We are called to be alert, to keep watch, be prepared. We JUST went over Ephesians 6 this morning about the Armor of God. We are told to be prepared for the battle before we even enter into it. Then we come to “of sober mind”...which according to Google says: “being sober-minded means keeping a clear, calm, and self-controlled mental state. It involves making logical, balanced decisions rather than being easily swayed by outside influences, toxic emotions, or fleeting distractions.” (Cool. Let me just put this ice cream away). We are told to be prepared, think strategically, stay calm, have a clear thinking process, and don’t freak out. Because the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. He wants us to freak out and give up and do something rash so he can take over from there. It’s what he’s best at, pulling the crazy out of us.

But the part of this passage that really spoke to me was the, “after you have suffered a little while…”

After we have suffered a little while? To us it may seem like years of suffering, but in the grand scheme of ETERNITY…it’s just a little while. Just a tiny little dot of time. Wee little bit.

“But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect establish, strengthen, and settle you.” (vs 10 nkjv)

But God.
The God of all grace.
The God who called us. Who sees us (El Roi). Who knows the very number of hairs on your head. Who numbers the stars and calls them each by name….

And then HE will perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle us.
Some versions say He will restore us. He will restore what the enemy has taken, whether it is a broken marriage, our health, our patience, our finances, our sanity….He will give it back and if you know what happened with Job…it’ll be ten times more than what we had before. We will come back established, strengthened, and settled.

Don’t give up, friends, keep trudging forward through the messiness and know that it’s just for a little while longer.

sj

“....this word came to Jeremiah from the Lord, saying: “Take a scroll of a book and write on it all the words that I hav...
06/23/2026

“....this word came to Jeremiah from the Lord, saying: “Take a scroll of a book and write on it all the words that I have spoken to you against Israel..”. Jeremiah 36:1-3 (nkjv)

I love to write. I started writing in a journal when I was a teen and have kept up the practice through my adult life. I have journals that only have a few entries and I have journals that are completely full. All depending on what was happening during my life at the time. It is therapeutic to me. One of my favorite things is when I get to buy a new journal. Fresh, blank pages for all my thoughts. I started a blog a few years ago and found out just how much I love breaking down what I have read in the Bible into bite sized pieces and sharing it with others. I have also kicked around the idea of writing a book one day. I have no idea what it will be about or who will read it, but it’s on my goal list.

Recently, I listened to a short clip that was talking about our God-given gifts. The main point of the clip was how when we are discovering our gifts, we need to cultivate them and practice them. I was convicted. I had been thinking of writing as a hobby, a therapeutic practice just for me to maybe look back on later in life. This guy was suggesting that I should be writing as a regular practice. One more thing for my to-do list. But it made sense.

I have been pushing the habit of waking up early and walking around our park. I take this time to pray for my kids, pray for myself, pray for my business, and surrender all of my thoughts. I pray for a mile (or two) and then I will either listen to a sermon, a book, or music. It is one of the most favoritest parts of my day. Nothing makes you feel better than pouring your heart out and exhausting yourself before 6 A.M.

During my walks, I sometimes feel God speaking to my heart. I am usually the one talking (if you know you know!!), but I have been working on being more intentional in listening for those little pieces that I may receive. Usually it is just a random thought, but then throughout the day or week, the same thought, message, verse, etc. will be repeated again through a conversation with a friend, on the radio, or at church.
Then one day it hit me….( I am cute, but can be slow at times), I should be writing down what I am receiving. I should be practicing and cultivating this gift of writing that I have been given and jot down what is being spoken to my heart. In a new journal, just for these thoughts….off to Target we go, my friends!!

God told Jeremiah to take a scroll and write out everything that God had spoken to him. 22 years of conversations between the prophet and YHWH. One huge journal of written word direct from the Creator, Himself. Sound familiar?

Hebrews 4:12 (nkjv) says, “For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.”

Since creation, God has been instructing His people to write it down. Record what is happening. Fill up that scroll. And Viola!!!!! We have the Holy Bible. A living book of history that is being proven true every single day in Israel through archaeology. Not only is it a history book, but it is a living, breathing, powerful story that shows God’s character and His plan. 66 journals all wrapped up in one for your reading pleasure.

When I was growing up, my dad started each morning at the dining room table with his Bible open and his coffee hot. We weren’t allowed to talk to him or distract him in any way until he was finished. In watching him, it has become a habit for me to do the same. Sunday morning, I went into my daughter’s room and she was on her bed with her Bible open, a journal laying next to it and a pen. I snapped a picture and sent it to my dad (Father’s Day was Sunday) and thanked him for the legacy he has left that is now going into its third generation.

I can’t fully explain to you what happens when you make the commitment to read your Bible and take time to write down what you have read, your thoughts, or even your prayers in a journal. Hebrews 11:6 (niv) says, “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him.”
When you are taking time out of your busy day, whether it’s first thing in the morning, or right before you go to bed, to read scripture and learn who God is, it not only deepens your faith, but stacks up the blessings in your life. You see that God is faithful, good, a provider, and in control of our past, present, and future.

I encourage everyone to grab your Bible and start reading through it. Even if you just flip open to a page and read one verse. It is life-changing.

SJ

P.S. I have been reading through the Bible this past year using The Bible Recap, by Tara Leigh Cobble, if you need a place to start. (Not getting paid in any way for saying that, but if she saw this that would be rad.) And, of course, if you need a Bible, I will GLADLY go to the bookstore with you to get one!!

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Happy Sunday!!
06/14/2026

Happy Sunday!!

I started a blog about 4 years ago and today I cleaned it up a bit. Check it out!!
06/14/2026

I started a blog about 4 years ago and today I cleaned it up a bit. Check it out!!

06/13/2026

Forward Movement

Three of my four kids wrestle. A majority of our Winter is spent in a loud, sweaty gym, with our bag full of snacks. I love it!! And I hate it! Nothing causes a mama heart anxiety like watching your child wrestle with an opponent for points and a ticket to State. But, it is also very freeing to let out all your stress and anxiety by jumping up and down, smacking the mat, and screaming, cheering, or yelling at the refs.
You can hear all the parents yelling out, “Cross-face” or “Shoot”, sometimes “Pin!!!”. But one phrase that our team grandma (Mama Googs) uses is “Forward motion”. Meaning, keep moving forward.

In wrestling you want to be on your toes, in a stance that is leaning forward. That way you can snap, shoot, or strike your opponent to get them on their back. If one wrestler is moving forward with purpose, the opposing wrestler is either also moving forward against them, or being pushed back on their heels and about to lose their balance. If you are not continually in forward motion, the ref calls “stalling”. According to Google a stalling call in wrestling “penalizes a competitor for intentionally avoiding aggressive engagement or delaying a match.” Stalling can be backing away, pushing out of the circle, faking contact, balling up (just laying there in a ball not trying to get up), or stalling on the edge (trying to go out of bounds on purpose to get a reset). Stalling can cost your team precious points.

Things have been a little stressful the last few years over here. I am solo-parenting and between finances, raising kids, running a business, sports, school, etc. I am tired. It seems like every time I try to spend time in the Word, write, pray, or surrender everything over to God, it is peaceful for about 3.7 minutes and then BAM!! I get hit from the side and bulldozed with something else. But a few weeks ago the phrase “Forward motion” came to mind and I remembered Mama Googs yelling this during a match.

The children of Israel were running from Pharaoh and his army to escape the captivity they suffered in Egypt. One part of their journey brought them through a narrow canyon that opened up to the Red Sea. With Pharaoh and his army in hot pursuit, there were too many people in their group to be able to turn around and change course when they realised there was not a bridge allowing them to cross the huge body of water in front of them. It was too late, they were stuck. So in typical Israelite fashion, they started crying and complaining to Moses that he had brought them out of Egypt only to die by Pharaoh’s army. But Moses, being the spokesman for God, said to them, “Do not be afraid, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord which He will accomplish for you today. For the Egyptians whom you see today, you shall see again no more forever. The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.” Exodus 14:13-14 (NKJV)
In the next verse, God speaks to Moses, “And the Lord said to Moses, “Why do you cry out to Me? Tell the children of Israel to go forward.” (vs 15-16)

Go Forward. Forward motion, Forward movement. Quit crying and freaking out and move forward.

When we get bulldozed in life, we stall, we freeze, we go stagnant. Stagnant means: “lacking movement, flow, or development.” Satan who loves to steal, kill, and destroy all our plans, relationships, and goals, is thrilled when something happens and we shut down and curl into a ball. He loves when we are ready to tap-out and are crawling our way out of the circle to give up. If he can keep us lacking in finances, then we spend most of our time worrying about how we will pay bills, feed our family, or fill our cars with gas. It takes our focus off of the one who provides all our needs. Stalling our purpose and His plans for our lives.

But God.

God then told Moses, “But lift up your rod, and stretch out your hand over the sea and divide it. And the children of Israel will go on dry ground through the midst of the sea….” (vs 16.)

Where the Israelites thought it was a dead end and they were stuck, standing at the shore of the Red Sea with an army stalking them from behind, God opened a door. God opened a whole sea!!!……walls of water with a narrow dirt path dry as the Sahara desert for them to cross to the other side.

2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV) says, “For God has not given us a Spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.”

God does not want us to worry or fear. He doesn’t want us to stall or be stagnant. He really hates when we ball-up into the fetal position and give up. He wants us in forward motion at all times. He even promises to guide us while we move forward. He opens doors we can’t even see at the time.

Psalm 32:8 (NKJV) says, “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will guide you with My eye.”

I know things are sometimes hard. I am the first person to tell you I’m ready to give up at times. But don’t quit, don’t ever give up. Keep moving forward. The Lord will fight for you. And you shall hold your peace.

SJ

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