07/09/2024
I Jumped off the ledge to fully Jump In.
Where I was could no longer take me to the place I must go. My future requires an upgrade. An upgrade of myself, my environment, my circle, my efforts, my focus…my life.
I took a pause, easy to do in Greece, and decided I had radical displeasure with being out of alignment. The feeling had been simmering for years. I would quiet it with self-judgement that I should be “grateful” for what I have. I would push away my discontent by drilling down further into the “lesson” it was teaching me. I would keep going, keep pushing even though I was running on empty for over five years. I was grateful, I was learning, I was working to show up my best, sharpen skills, making the best of it all, and still I was feeling a pull to more, a strong knowing this would not get me where I was meant to go.
Giving myself the time and space to think about it all in Greece, made me certain the only commitment I was willing to make moving forward was to be aligned with what I am created to accomplish in this finite life we have been given. I felt a mighty pull to unwind all the things not working for me, not propelling me forward to my dream state. So…I jumped. With my voice shaking, and almost falling to my knees I spoke the words of “thank you, but no thank you”. I left my security, because I knew I, myself, am capable of creating more than a Corporate job ever could. I am the one who cares the most about my life, my future, my purpose to be fulfilled than anyone else on this planet. So I took myself, my future, my life into my own hands and jumped. And surprisingly, especially to myself, I don’t regret it at all!
The dream I have for my life is comprehensive. It encompasses all aspects of one’s life: relationships, financial, contribution, fun, growth and so much more. I tried to walk on both sides of the fence at the same time, and this did not work for me. I owe it to myself and to this big dream to fully invest in it. To disallow anything that does not contribute fully to unfolding the next level. The ideal looks like freedom, doing what I love, pouring into others, a influential, strong community full of impact and intellect, travel, strong growing relationship with my kids, time with my business partner, my brilliant, beautiful mother, and, most of all sharing it all with the love of my life, Tal.
As I come out of my state of utter exhaustion and being “crispy burnt out”, I will be patient with myself. I will care for myself. I will rest when I need to rest. I will trust, and will not settle for less than what takes me to my ideal state. I move forward with emotional gratitude for every aspect that has led me to the moment of today. I step into more and more courage, empowerment, self-confidence, trust, and freedom. I am scared, and at times doubt myself, but my will and dream are louder voices I must trust and listen to in order to build this dream. I once heard that no emotion stays for longer than 90 seconds unless you ruminate on it. I needed to hear this again today. I will remember who I am and what I must accomplish.
Failure is not an option when I am in alignment. Stay tuned for more….
