I Am Bella Rayne

I Am Bella Rayne The Soft Lover Girl, pink is my power color, 80s tenderoni ✨️🎀 THE Soft Lover Girl. I DESERVE everything I have ✨️🎀

04/10/2026

Today I decided to feel my emotions, and I cried my self to sleep 👎🏽 THANKS 🤷🏽‍♀️

So when I have a potential friend connection I start it off with being EXTREMLY OPEN....I don't have a choice. It's weir...
04/09/2026

So when I have a potential friend connection I start it off with being EXTREMLY OPEN....

I don't have a choice.

It's weird, because most people can simply be passive and lie....I cannot,.my life depends on it.

I don't give out my number....I simply can't be accessible like normal people can.

The vetting period lasts for a long time.

Imagine talking about all of this and then that person uses the information to literally trigger you on purpose. 🙃

When you just openly ask about their intention with something

First they say youre a bad friend, then they back track and say...well we are both bad friends but we will learn together....

Except you didn't do anything in the first place.

And you continue with this because you're already a year in and making friends is very hard and exhausting because of your list of whimsy (mental illness).

And you second guess yourself because after all you did explain this long weird ass list to them and they agreed to this. They say you're worth it and saying all the right things in private. Because when in the world will someone say yes to all of this for you ever again?

But you find out they say awful things to trigger you just because they exist.

So anyway I said I was going to allow myself to feel again and now im crying at iron infusion appointment.

Tears are cleansing so it's alright 😔

A few weeks ago I found out that someone I thought was my friend wasn’t actually my friend.That hurt. And yeah, I crashe...
04/08/2026

A few weeks ago I found out that someone I thought was my friend wasn’t actually my friend.

That hurt. And yeah, I crashed out. I feel like I had every right to.

Before, I would’ve stayed quiet. Kept it cute. Tried not to make noise
This time I didn’t. And I’m glad I didn’t.

Today I realized I’m not even mad anymore. I can just see it clearly now.

I should’ve never let it get to a third time.

Not a third boundary crossed.

Not a third time being accused of things that weren’t real.

I gave her grace because she was going through a lot.

But the truth is everybody is going through something.

When you care about people, you don’t treat them like a punching bag.

That doesn’t make her a terrible person.

She’s just a person.

She just wasn’t a good friend to me.

I don’t need anyone else to dislike her.

That’s not my focus.

People need people. She might be better to people she actually values.

I just wasn’t one of them.

And that’s okay.

Being human is messy.

It is what it is.

I do look at friendship differently now.

I’m not chasing it anymore.

If it happens, it happens.

I already have a beautiful life.

I have people who love me and show up for me.

That’s enough for me.

04/08/2026

I NEED THIS ✨️🥹💗🎀

04/08/2026

Another day down. Discipline is self devotion ✨️💗🎀

03/23/2026

I think I was listening to Sabrina Carpenter 😂. The way I didn't want to be there this morning but we keep stepping. Not gonna just sit around and do nothing ✨️💗🤷🏽‍♀️🎀

03/23/2026

The way I do not want ro be in this gym should be studied. OMGGG 😭😭😭

03/16/2026

I mean lets BFFR 🙄😂 L O S E R 🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾

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