10/05/2023
This has got to be one of the hardest seasons of my life. The Lord has really been teaching me contentment in this season and teaching how to not clap back or respond…. I’m just sharing my heart…
I’m pretty quiet unless it’s something I’m extremely passionate about I can talk for hours to you about it… but in this season of my life I’ve been persecuted in multiple areas. To my supervisor giving me hell at work, I had to report her to HR it got bad and the Holy Spirit would tell me to hush and pray for her. I cut off a friend over 10 years of friendship because he disrespected at the ultimate level and I knew I wasn’t going to accept that from anyone, yet the Lord tells me to process the loss but pray for him only for the HS to show me how broken he was….
It may not seem like a lot but to experience hell at work, two losses of people I thought were going to do life with me and now they are gone and yes I decided to remove them because I know I deserve better treatment than what I was getting. It doesn’t mean it still didn’t hurt for me to do it…
To my ex husband conceiving a child during our marriage yet I had two miscarriages(it was Gods protection, I know this now) and the Lord tells me yes people know but remain quiet it’s not worth the clapping back. Yes, it’s embarrassing… In fact the Lord instructed me to send her money and pray for her. The Lord began to share with me things about her that made me weep for her soul and have compassion for her…
YET, I had plenty to say I wanted to cuss her out and say some words to my EX if I’m being honest. The Holy Spirit has been quickening my spirit to just HUSH. It’s hard for me because I have a lot to say now LOL. And….
“But he answered me, “My grace is always more than enough for you, and my power finds its full expression through your weakness.” So I will celebrate my weaknesses, for when I’m weak I sense more deeply the mighty power of Christ living in me.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 TPT
AND….
“My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry,”
James 1:19 NIV
AND….
I know God doesn’t play about me….
AND…
I know that this season is only preparing me for my next season where a lot of things will have to require me to not respond and require serious obedience…
Okay just sharing my heart! Hope it was received. Be obedient and love on someone today who you truly despise… Jesus did why can’t you…
