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I write my thoughts and feelings of that day to unburden myself of the weight of leaving things unsaid, it makes me feel better.

The papers came in spring, when fields grew green,And promised glory in a distant land.We marched away, so young, so raw...
02/28/2026

The papers came in spring, when fields grew green,
And promised glory in a distant land.
We marched away, so young, so raw, so clean,
With mothers' tears still trembling on our hand.

They spoke of honor, duty, sacred cause,
Of freedom's light we must go forth to shield.
We fought their war, we died beneath their laws,
And harvested what bloody fields would yield.

The generals sat in comfort, far behind,
And planned our moves upon their paper charts.
We left our youth, our reason, and our mind,
In ditches filled with pieces, not with hearts.

And when the bugle called us o'er the top,
Into the fire that scythed us from the earth,
We wondered if they'd ever make them stop—
These men who traded nations for their worth.

The politician in his polished hall,
Who speaks of sacrifice with practiced grief,
Has never heard a dying comrade call,
Or clutched a friend's blood through a disbelief.

His children play where river meets the land,
Bare feet in mud, with laughter loud and free.
They do not know that on some foreign sand,
Their father's ambitions buried me.

My mother waits beside an empty chair,
My father stares at photographs alone.
My sweetheart wears the grief beneath her hair,
And speaks my name in a remembering tone.

The war goes on, though I have long been still,
A number on a list, a fading name.
The politicians climb, and always will,
While we become the substance of their game.

And by the river, where the children play,
Barefoot and careless in the afternoon,
They'll grow to read of heroes, one fine day,
And never know we died for their cocoon.

The ghost of you still knows the code,the secret knock upon my chest.It slips past bolts I have bestowed,and settles, wh...
02/19/2026

The ghost of you still knows the code,
the secret knock upon my chest.
It slips past bolts I have bestowed,
and settles, where it once could rest.
It does not speak of what we were,
or ask about the years between.
It only lets the silence stir
a grief that should be far less keen.

I pass a street, I catch a song,
some trivial, unnamed small thing,
and suddenly the hurt is strong,
a phantom limb, a severed string.
I wonder if you ever find,
in some old book or faded place,
a scribbled margin of your mind
that wears the weathering of my face.

I like to think that you moved on
to brighter rooms and softer days,
and that the memory I dawn
has faded in the sunlit haze.
But selfish in my quiet night,
I’m glad to hold this ache alone.
A pain that proves, by its own might,
a love by time was never shown.

For if it faded, if it ceased,
then all we were would be undone.
This hollow is my honored priest
to a religion with no sun.
So let it hurt, this constant lack,
this echo in a vacant room.
The wound you gave, I won't give back.
It is my proof, in lasting gloom.

When shadows stretch and daylight fades to gray,And every step feels like a price to pay,When hollow winds through empty...
01/14/2026

When shadows stretch and daylight fades to gray,
And every step feels like a price to pay,
When hollow winds through empty chambers blow,
And every seed of hope refuses grow.

When mountains rise where level paths once lay,
And you have nothing more of yours to say,
When strength is just a memory, thin and worn,
And from your grasp all certainties are torn.

That is the time — dig deeper in the clay,
The darkest hour will usher in the day.
The roots grow strongest in the frozen ground,
Where silent, secret fortitude is found.

The ocean’s lowest ebb must turn and climb,
There is a tide, a rhythm, and a time.
The broken branch, in time, will sprout anew,
The sky, though black, will soften into blue.

So hold. Just hold. However faint the spark,
A single ember can defy the dark.
You are the story that is still untold,
A heart of iron under stone and cold.

Don’t measure courage by an unbruised hand,
But by the will to rise and once more stand.
The night is long, but you are longer still —
Bend, but remember, you were made to fill

This aching space with breath, however slight,
Until you meet again your own inner light.
The world needs not just sunshine, but the rain,
And you, who know the splitting deep of pain.

For valleys make the peaks worth climbing for —
Keep going. There is beauty yet in store.
You are the dawn you cannot see from here,
A song the weary universe will hear.

The Boy Who Learned WallsThe first heartbreak came like a sudden storm,A vase knocked from a sill,Leaving shards he trie...
01/08/2026

The Boy Who Learned Walls

The first heartbreak came like a sudden storm,
A vase knocked from a sill,
Leaving shards he tried to mend,
With clumsy, childlike hands.
Each piece was placed, but never quite,
And something stayed spilled.

The second came as winter’s frost,
A slow and creeping chill,
That turned the garden of his trust
To something pale and still.
He learned to love the barren ground,
The quiet, and the kill.

The third was not a blow, but theft,
A sly and subtle art,
That took the map keys to himself
And left him in the dark.
He then decided maps were lies,
And built walls round his heart.

He grew proficient in the craft
Of fortifying stone.
Each look, each smile, a possible breach,
He faced them all alone.
He studied exits, guessed the traps,
And turned potential into threat,
A fortress on a bloodied throne,
A one-man garrison.

So when the true one finally came—
With footsteps soft as dawn,
Who brought no storm, no frost, no theft,
Just steady, patient sun—
He stood behind his battlements,
And watched, and weighed, and spun
Her gentle words to strategy,
A game he thought he’d won.

He saw the key within her hand
As just a pick for locks.
He saw the bridge she built for him
As clever paradox.
He called her realness “masterplay,”
The purest of the shocks.

For when you’ve made a home of hurt,
And pain your only tune,
The silent grace of rightful love
Can feel like coming ruin.
And sometimes, broken one, the heart
Is blinded by its scars,
And sees a final, saving hand,
And lifts its shield—because
The deepest tragedy is not
The wounds we have received,
But failing, when the healing comes,
To trust the hand that grieves.

Your heart a room too full of speech,A language woven,out of reach.The pen feels light,the page too wide,For all the ach...
01/04/2026

Your heart a room too full of speech,
A language woven,out of reach.
The pen feels light,the page too wide,
For all the ache you hold inside.

It’s not a storm, but something still—
A heavy quiet,a stubborn chill.
A tangled root,a knotted thread,
The things remembered,left unsaid.

The words, like birds, take flight and flee,
From what you feel,from what you see.
They leave you mute beneath the weight
Of loving deeply,and of fate.

But let this silence be your clay,
The things youcannot write or say.
For even blankness holds a art—
The map of a breaking,faithful heart.

And though the phrases fray and fall,
This ache itself has said it all.
It needs no perfect,tragic line—
It’s written in the breath,the spine.

So let the page stay bare and true.
The world has felt this fracture,too.
The deepest wound,the softest sound,
Is often where no words are found.

The StationThey have boarded trains with confident goodbyes,their tickets punched for cities in the sun.I watch the last...
12/31/2025

The Station

They have boarded trains with confident goodbyes,
their tickets punched for cities in the sun.
I watch the last sleek carriage blur and run,
while I remain,rehearsing my own lies.

The platform echoes with departed sound.
My feet are rooted to the dusty tile.
A timetable,incomprehensible and vile,
shows all the places I am not yet bound.

Is something broken in my waiting heart?
A faulty clock,a missed, decisive call?
I study maps that decorate the wall,
but every route and junction falls apart.

They send back photographs of distant coasts,
of peaks they’ve scaled,of bridges they have crossed.
I count the paralyzing price and cost
of being what a moving season ghosts.

The station master says the rails are clear,
but something in the switchyard has gone wrong.
I’ve been composing this goodbye so long,
the very thought of leaving breeds a fear.

So let their journeys be both wide and deep.
I hold a single,weathered, waiting token.
Some hearts are not so easily unbroken.
Some schedules promises they cannot keep.

And for a while, perhaps this is my track:
to be the stillness after the departures,
to learn the architecture of my quarters,
and trust the light that does not hurry back.

The Push-Pull of a Breaking HeartIt starts in the silence. That’s where she builds her castle of regret. In the echoing ...
12/30/2025

The Push-Pull of a Breaking Heart

It starts in the silence. That’s where she builds her castle of regret. In the echoing quiet after the fight, the memory of her own sharp words feels alien, monstrous. She replays his hurt expression, the door closing too softly, and with each replay, her own guilt calcifies into a desperate, aching need. Fix this. Fix this. Fix this. The mantra beats in time with her heart. She drafts texts she never sends, full of elegant apologies and vulnerable admissions. She practices speeches in the shower, her voice soft and clear, imagining his face softening in response. In her mind, their reconciliation is a cinematic masterpiece of tearful embraces and quiet promises.

This version of “fixing” exists only in the vacuum of her solitude. It’s a controlled, one-woman show where she is both the penitent and the forgiving audience. She is preparing to mend a bridge she pictures as still standing, just needing a little repair.

Then, he moves.

His text appears—a simple, “Can we talk?” His voice on the phone, hesitant but reaching. The bridge isn’t as she pictured. He’s on the other side, holding out a tool, ready to work. And her entire system rebels.

The very sight of his name on her screen triggers a visceral, knee-jerk revolt. The carefully crafted apologies evaporate. Where she planned for softness, a barbed wire of defensiveness springs up. She’s short with him. “Now’s not a good time.” She’s dismissive. “I’m fine. It’s whatever.” She might even pick a new fight, nitpicking the tone of his olive branch. She acts, for all the world, like she wants him to disappear.

It’s not what she wants. It’s a perverse, self-sabotaging reflex born of a perfect storm of fear:

The fortress heart, a stubborn, sun-warmed stone,That knows my step,and yet I walk alone.I see the signal flash,a fleeti...
12/30/2025

The fortress heart, a stubborn, sun-warmed stone,
That knows my step,and yet I walk alone.
I see the signal flash,a fleeting sign—
A softening of eyes that once were mine.

A laugh that lingers, meant for me to keep,
Then buried swiftly in a purpose deep.
She speaks in daylight,clear as winter streams,
Of separate roads and impractical dreams.

“A waste of time,” the practiced phrase is thrown,
But in the quiet dark,a different tone.
A silent glance that holds a trapped confession,
A moment’s unprotected,raw impression.

Yet when I reach, a portcullis descends,
A wall of“never” that she builds and tends.
She trusts the fear more than the fragile thread
Of what the silent,speaking looks have said.

So here I pace outside the chosen wall,
Hearing the beats that answer every call,
But barred from entry by the guard within—
The very love that she refuses to begin.

A maddening geometry of soul,
Two matching halves denied a single whole.
To see the“yes” and be told only “no,”
Is the cruelest duel that two hearts can know.

Two lonely hearts that beat as onenow stand apart,the damage done.They long to meet on middle ground,but neither makes a...
12/29/2025

Two lonely hearts that beat as one
now stand apart,the damage done.
They long to meet on middle ground,
but neither makes a single sound.

Each thinks, "If they would just reach out,
I'd drop my worries, end this drought.
I'd run to them, my pride I'd lose..."
But both just stand and wait for clues.

She watches from her windowpane,
and hopes he'll walk the lane again.
He glances at his silent phone,
and wishes she would call his own.

A stubborn stalemate, day by day.
Both want to meet,but both delay.
The fear of being first to try
makes both their lonely hours crawl by.

The space between them, cold and wide,
is fueled by injured,foolish pride.
A simple step could heal the rift

12/29/2025

They are no longer the person I love, but they are forever the reason I understand what love can feel like. That imprint doesn't fade; it becomes the compass for everything after.

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