10/25/2025
Emman Atienza once shared in her interview with Toni G. that she suffered abuse from her nanny when she was young. Hearing her story reminded me of something I’ve quietly observed in life — how deeply childhood trauma shapes a person.
When a child is abused, it changes something inside. Some grow up angry at the world, rebelling against everything and everyone. Others become distant, cold, or numb. Many find themselves trapped in destructive paths—wrong relationships, vices, addiction, even prostitution or self-harm.
And for those who grew up with more privilege, pain can take a different form—excessive spending, hoarding, or chasing success just to fill the void inside.
But behind all these, there’s often one thing in common:
The silent battle with suicidal thoughts.
People often call it selfishness or attention-seeking. But it’s not. You can’t truly understand that darkness unless you’ve been there—unless you’ve felt what it’s like to want the pain to stop, but not knowing how.
To those who know me personally, you know the battles I’ve faced. What I’ve learned through my own journey is this:
Healing doesn’t come from pretending to be strong. It comes from surrendering to God’s grace.
Because only by His grace can a wounded soul be restored. Only through His love can brokenness be made whole again.
So if you’re reading this and you’re fighting silent battles—please know you’re not alone.
There is hope. There is healing. And His name is Jesus.
