03/23/2024
The Submariners Window By Josh Godbey (TM2/SS)
"I stare out this window, tense in a chair,
wondering why I did it, does any one actually care,
and then I think about my brothers, the guys I served beside,
Theres a special bond amongst us, we were just trying to survive.
If I could offer you a glimpse, What would you say,
have you ever been 100's of feet underwater, try 75+ days,
like a young set of brothers, we bi***ed and moaned at one another
But we;re all a little crazy and we're few and far between,
but you wouldnt understand if you've never been on a submarine
Beneath the waves things can get hairy, I'd be lying if I said at times it wasnt scary,
it'd be quick and we'd all go, but 15 years later and I still havent come home,
I often wonder how did this happen, I never saw combat,
but we get a combat veteran status and I feel guilty for that,
People often ask, how do you get issues from being on a submarine,
have you ever been awoken by the floooding alarm, at half past three?
Have you ever experienced, wait I cant tell you where or what we did,
so i'll bear that weight at night, so you can sleep peacefully by your kid.
Invisible doesnt mean false, but to some it sure seems to,
Where were you in 2002, you could have joined and walked in our shoes,
but you probably halted at the possibility of not existing,
meanwhile kid ands women were being beaten on the consistent,
unlike most boats we had no backup close, we were hunters hiding beneath the water,
we never got caught and fortunate enough to be protected by the father,
but it didnt come wihout bearing and it didnt show up at once,
but PTSD is real, dying in repetitive dreams is not fun
Becuase we're visible and not expressing it outwardly,
some people think its fake and think thats its cowardly,
when in reality it is in my brain, to think its anywhere else is absolutely insane,
Yes it can happen, its actually quite common,
Some of the sounds and events have sub-conscious trauma
Brothers of the 'PHIN, we all joined for one reason or another,
and as a dolphin wearing bubblehead you will always be my brother,
I hope all is well, and you're all living the life,
cause at the end of the day, we we're just trying to survive".
They say writing, Which I enjoy, I should be doing more. I dont share much in that aspect. But although its completely not poetically correctly, I felt compelled to share. I'm not a poetry guy, but this one turned out that way
