09/19/2026
Day 1 of keeping promises to myself.
I donāt bat an eye when it comes to taking care of other people but taking care of me is hard sometimes.
After another miscarriage a couple months ago, another surgery and just mentally dealing with the grief and being āpostpartumā but not having the precious child to show for it, honestly has just kicked my tail.
Itās hard enough to balance being a wife, mama, helping run our farm, working full time and all the extras Iām doing without adding loss into the mix.
I lost 130+ pounds and kept it off until pregnancy, loss and everything else and Iāve gained 28 pounds back. But honestly itās not just the weight I feel slowly coming back. Itās the low self esteem, low confidence in myself, draggy/tired/sluggish.
I will never allow the āold meā back into my life again. The 350 pound, didnāt think she deserved to live, sad, down and depressed girl who was just surviving in a world she could have been thriving in her whole life!
N.E.V.E.R will she be back!!!
So with all that being said Iām picking myself back up again, trying everyday to do something to make me feel better! Mentally & physically!
I also would like to add that itās okay to āstart againā because if I hadnāt of started again 4 years ago I may not be here today!
Will everyday be sunshine and rainbows? No! But honestly Iām going to tell myself it is and once you say something enough times you will start to believe it!
If you are struggling mentally, reach out to someone.
You are lovedš©µ
You are worthyš
Proverbs 3:15
āShe is more precious than rubiesā š