12/18/2023
I'll just put this here. The best & most important thing about being & staying single for life. A fact if you never been or get married, engaged or seriously committed. The upside is being single for life. You'll never lose the 1 you Love. & that person your with will never endure losing you when it's over it's just over. No one to mourn or to mou r n you. You'll never lose the 1 you love & they'll never lose you. That I can live with. I'll never have to say goodbye to a I'll mate & vice versa. We have all seen & experienced or observed those we love falling apart & hurt when losing a loved 1. What if there's was no one to mourn because there's no 1 there. Now maybe because I don't date or do relationships personally my lack of experience with intimacy, emotionally commitments, spending time with anyone because I'm always working. But to me it's easier not to love ever than to love & loss the 1 person that means the world to you. For this reason alone I keep to myself & stay single. I'd rather live my life alone. Than to give my heart than 1 day have to bury the person that means everything to me. I think personally I'd rather avoid ever having feelings like that. I've taken way to many Ls already. I don't want to lose someone that means the world to me. I'd rather just avoid that whole situation. I don't ever want to experience losing the 1 I love the most I'd rather never love than to take that L. Keeping it a Buck for real why I've chosen to never commit or seriously date anyone. I don't do personal because than I never have to experience losing the 1 I love I can just fade to lol Black when my time is up. In the meantime I focus on being remembered for other things other than family & relationships. I focus on my life & continue helping those I can until that day I end. & know my leaving will not effect anyone in that way because I'm not with anyone that way to loss me or me them. This for me works. The next L I'll take of a loved 1 lol will be myself as I checkout. If I never get married, date or committ I'll never lose love or endure the pain of that type of loss. So many people are just desistated by losing husband's, wife's, lovers, girlfriends, boyfriends. I've for this reason alone have decided not to ever ho thru that. Meaning life alone permanently. I'd rather never bury another loved 1 especially someone I'm in love with I'd rather never love on a personal level than to have to bury 1 day someone that means that much to me. So here's 1 of the Main reason I've never taken being with anyone as necessary or needed in my life I've permanently chosen to avoid ever experiencing that feeling or situation. There are other reasons. But this 1 sits as my main # 1 reason to avoid relationships or caring with personal feelings involved. This is why I'm never more than just a friend to so many. But committed only to my working. I can make it any clearer. Ladies I love you to death. I've just always avoided being in love that I'm terrible at.
