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06/16/2025

Today I learned what a wisteria flower was…

Speed is key in a lot of aspects of life, but theres a difference between going smoothly and forcing movement — taking shortcuts, half understanding, half doing — rushing toward outcomes is the quickest way to stay stuck at a medium good level —

slow is smooth and smooth is fast

So im learning to take it slow — 10 years to master cinematography, 4 years to get good at board climbing — when you eat sit back in the middle of it and take in your environment, when you walk take slow strides, look at a beetle on the ground, smile at those walking past you, speak slowly and clearly, move with intention and experience whatever pace your at to he fullest, the more consistently you can do things slowly and smoothly the faster you will become.

On another hand, learning to focus my true attention on a few outcomes, allowing other less important things to be side projects or hobbies until they can have my full attention, I cannot be everything to everyone in everything everywhere all at once if I had to put it in a sentence — when its time to eat, eat - when its time to relax, relax - when it is time to grind, grind hard - when it is time to create, lose yourself completely

Today’s lesson was inspired by

05/27/2025

Today I’m gaining insight from the details…

Every watch I own was a gift given to me — and I’ve only ever gotten a new watch when I’ve broken my old one — I’m weirdly sentimental about things like that actually — if you know me I don’t seem like it — the things that I love using are well, well used, dinged, scratched, dirtied and washed countless times especially if the object is made to handle it like my current watch was.

Some of the dings have come from me being a bit careless, kind of like how you drop the normal social niceties with and old friend or a family member or a lover because you know they can handle it, that they are there with you — like people objects and process can be taken for granted like the details don’t matter as much in the daily battle of life

I’ve been on set this whole last week and while I don’t yet think I can fully measure up to keeping the details nice — I’m noticing them, the scratches on my watch, cables out of place, a weird shadow, the few moments before an emotion I need to capture on set, the small changes in tone, the wrinkles in clothing, the cleanliness of my desk, the smell of my car, the volume I speak at, and so and so forth — to make amazing things you have to care about the details — that’s actually the crucial difference between my work and the people I admire I think — a strict standard for the little details — and now that I can see them I can begin minding them

05/18/2025

What brightened my day today was the ability to savor these feelings…

A few years ago I began to notice how quickly time was moving — how many days flew by — how quickly it went from 6am to 10pm — time flys when your having fun but it also flys when your unaware — recently I’ve been really able to be conscious in each moment

“This may be the last time I hug them” “ we may never eat here again” “this is the first time I’ve felt this way” “this moment makes me happy” “that action causes me to feel badly about myself”

More and more I’m able to detach myself from a situation or a moment and make a choice — I’ve literally said this in my head multiple times — “savor this” — actively choosing to be in the moment, staying conscious of the fact that a lot of the good and bad things I am experiencing will only happen once or twice — even for some of the things with a longer time horizon like building a business or building my body or changing my character, the movement through those endeavors will not last forever — there are phases to life and a lot of them you move on from and cannot return — its easy to only feel things fully in retrospect but im proud of myself for being able to recognize being in the “good ol days” now

I’ve had some really good days recently — and I felt every second of it — I didn’t distract myself — I didn’t waste too much time trying to capture it or question it or get attached to it — just feeling it and if tomorrow sucks feeling it too — and just enjoying the fact that I get to feel in the first place

05/13/2025

Your lack of commitment is almost an insult to those who believed in you…

I’ve learned that selfish motivations are often not enough to create and do excellent things — they *can* work; I’ve accomplished a lot from selfishness — “I want to look better.” “I want to be richer.” “I don’t want to feel that way again.” “I don’t want to lose like that again.” — but there are two issues here:

1. It becomes difficult to make beautiful things from a place of negativity.
2. If the bar is only held up by what you receive, it’s far easier to fall to a lesser standard.

So I draw my inspiration from the fact that others have believed in me even before I had good evidence to show them. And what I’ve found recently — being the best version of me allows me to give the best to them. The only true repayment I can offer these individuals, really, is becoming the person they already see in me.

This is not only a more pressing calling, potentially — it’s also a positive intention. Thinking about how you can improve the lives of others, not just run away from the things that hurt you.

05/07/2025

Today whats resisting me is the fear of being left alone…

The last 10 months have been some of the most difficult months of my life so far— it has taken a lot of effort to feel sane again — and recently I fell back into another slump and I’m even feeling it today — just weighed down — like someone turned up the gravity or something

I’ve always suffered from feeling left out or left behind — as someone who is naturally introverted I love certain amounts of solitude — it was only until some special people came into my life that I learned to love being around and with other people — and a lot of that support system has either moved far away or in a different space in life from me right now, or out of my life all together — and on days like today that’s really hard, some days it’s really lonely, it’s hard not to focus only on that — it’s annoying to learn to crave something and have to put it on the back burner a bit because of what is happening in life — I’ve honestly over stayed my welcome in a few people’s lives as a result of it

I’ve not only learned to lean on others — I no longer want to be fully left alone

Which is quite scary, I don’t even have a solution really

what got me moving today was remembering who is here — the friends who stay up late with me on discord whenever I get a free evening — the new connections I’ve sparked over the last few months — so many people have held space and taken interest in me in the last few months people who have no idea how much it has helped me on days like today, and I’ve had a lot of em

I’ll let this feeling inform the community I build around myself as I move forward

05/01/2025

Today the excitement is coming from the ability to find more…

I don’t want mediocre results by almost any metric that I measure my life — not looking to meet the standards of any boring external hierarchy — but by the overwhelming sense of being “used up” at the end of my endeavors

Being willing to exert yourself to limit with no guarantee of success, is a very new desire or ability I guess for me.

The status quo that I was born with is comfortable — acceptable even — but the joy of putting everything into pushing the limit of what is possible in your efforts however — finding a new 100% every project, every interaction, every workout, everyday — is a more tangible experience than anything I have come across in my short years on earth so far, can’t wait to find more.

04/29/2025

My energy today is coming from a realization that I’m the only one who can help…

Not so much in a cosmic sense — I’m not particularly special or skilled in the grand scheme of things — but in a more particular sense, I’m in the right place at the right time, I’m their friend, I’m in fellowship with that person, I’m her son, I’m in a relationship with that person, I’m in direct proximity with people and whether I like it or not who I am will influence them positively or negatively — the energy I put into building myself, building my skills, and building my character, will radiate out to those around — it’s not necessarily about changing the world it’s about making my presence, into something that helps in a real way — whether it’s by being a silent listener — or building a tangible solution to the problem at hand

In the same way, I want the things I create to do a similar thing — I want its very existence to change those bearing witness to it.

04/24/2023

Been spending the last two years only really reading about business and sales - but getting back into my philosophy and in this case the philosophy of creativity which is my main tool being used for making money and business anyway - found this book from my reading list randomly in a little bookshop this week so decided to check it out - hopefully will allow me to continue to sharpen my creative knife as I get ready to go back to school.

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04/20/2023

PROCRASTINATINGGGGG - I actually got a decent amount done today but I’m this last hour had to redirect my at room to something else for a bit since this project I’m doing is annoying me lol

Did this a while ago but is so helpful - literally used to take me so long to make random graphic for my comms job or to even make posts - been experimenting with the background removal and like it’s low-key better than photoshop a lot of time actually

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