05/03/2024
It's been some months since I've posted anything on any of my socials. I genuinely did not have anything to say or post, I was not excited about anything, and I had no desire to interact with the world or anyone on my friends list..
Depression is real. Depression can take over and essentially ruin your entire life if you’re not careful. Being aware of the signs and symptoms, and recognizing when they get worse means you’re still stronger than the illness, which I have found is true in my case.��
On top having a transphobic psychiatrist, no way to pay for my medication, and having no insurance at the time, caused my depression to not only increase but something caused me to become very sick since December. No COVID, no flu, no pneumonia- just feeling crappy and respiratory issues, which I later found out are because of STRESS. 4 months of sickness due to the stress of life and my brain's chemical imbalance. ��
It is sad that I am still considered unhappy despite having taken the steps to become the authentic person I believe myself to be. The weight of the world has made it extremely difficult to feel the happiness I so truly desire. ��
However, I came to the realization that no one is going to save me from myself other than myself. There are going to be more people in the world who dislike me for being true to myself than for clinging to societal expectations and forcing myself to be someone I’m not. ��
I am now back on my medicine, feeling better than I have in a VERY long time. Of course, the normality of life isn’t always peaches n creams and there will always be some unhappy times, but it’s feeling like I can conquer the world regardless that’s the superpower here.��
I actually look in the mirror and see someone worth fighting for, someone worth living for. ��
Be kind to those around you. You never know what someone is going through or what battle they are fighting on their own.
