Smallhands Please Keep Breathing

07/30/2026

My heart is full
Just a few words
And I'm going to hang onto them
For dear life
Tie them down in my synapses
Let them trickle off my lips
Only to drink them back in
If only you knew
How I hang on every word!
If only you knew
Somehow I think you do

07/27/2026

I begin to ponder the peculiarity
Of how we flock around
Dead songs from dead voices
Words once scribbles by long dead hands
How haunting the most happy melodies become
How tragic the greatest comedies
Thinking of spirits caught in sound
And souls captures on paper
Begging to be heard
Long after the singer is gone
Are they truly gone?
Are they trapped,
Unable to move on?
Are they brought back to life for one more song?
Sheer purgatory
Existing as a record
Longing to be touched by the needle
How sad an existence!
Waiting to be freed from the pages of a book

07/26/2026

The growling and the gnashing
Never goes away
So go gather all your bullets
And pray that none go astray
I was born
Something between a person and a hound
I move in and out of darkness
Without making a sound
The hunters came prowling
From a town on the edge of my woods
They'd have to turn it all to kindling
For it to do any good
My pores are full of buckshot
My back full of knives
And the pains all been forgot
Somewhere in my many lives
The village thought their women
We're a small price to pay
They sent them for the rending
And I just let them get away
Come for me all you poachers
Go and sharpen all your blades
My death won't be any closer
And my teeth will won't be stayed
I don't want the village children
Or any of the innocent ones
I want all of the cowardly huntsmen
To see me blocking out their sun

07/23/2026

All opening my heart ever got me
Was blood on my shirt

07/22/2026

I stand in the place where many men met their defeat
At the edge of loneliness
Contemplating retreat
Praying for a time frame where nobody leaves
Somewhere close to death is where I'll find reprieve
Where the darkness seeps in
And the sound all goes still
My breathing uneasy
Lungs hard to fill
At the edge of loneliness
Is where I'll lose my fight
Might not be today
But some coming night
I've taken their arrows shot from their mouths
Theyve beaten me senseless all across my brows
When it's all blood and tears it becomes hard to see
At the edge of loneliness is where they'll bury me
I've pushed that rock to the top of the hill
It just rolls to the bottom and I'm pushing still
Under the great weight placed on top of me
At the edge of loneliness is where I'll cease to be

07/21/2026

I may be odd... But everything I do is from the heart... And every intention is good...

07/21/2026

07/16/2026

Even then dumbest things
I have to say
Get stuck in my throat
Damn you for being so perfect
But don't stop
That stuttering and bumbling
Is my favorite part of my day

07/14/2026

Do I just accept
That some people never get
Any of the things that make life beautiful
And I am amongst those sad poets
That scribbled sonnets on parchment
Long long ago.
I swear I'm worth it
All it takes is a little reassurance
To turn these hazy eyes
Into ones that shine with recognition
All it takes is catching my hand
And I'll bow my head
Place your burdens on my back
And walk.
I just want my happy ending
Not some Shakespearean tragedy
I just want to feel safe again
But for keeps this time
But here I am beating a dead horse
Alienating myself with every word
I just want my happy ending
If it's not coming
Then let the tragedy come and
Let that be my final bow.

07/09/2026

If it's not you
Little stargazer
It's no one
And I'll just smile a sad smile
At the moments
That replay in my head