Smallhands Please Keep Breathing

12/09/2025

The mind is a torturous thing
Tightening the screws
Into our temples
Until we scream out
When our heads contents
Begin to feel tight
And finally burst out
Like a tube of toothpaste
Stomped on from the bottom
Spraying itself
Over everything we love
O how I wish I was simple
One of the vacant and vapid ones
How I wish the term losing your mind
Just meant that
A return to a blank slate
A tabula rasa
Instead of this malfunctioning motherboard
Screaming from the overload
Brother Owl is begging for the loosing of his bidings
Brother Owl promises he is no threat at all

12/04/2025

12/04/2025

They thought you were just complaining
They thought you were joking
But it's hard to hear what someone is saying
While they're drowning

12/03/2025

My heart won't allow you to fade
My mind
That has always been so keen to walk away
Won't allow me to turn away
But I must rip myself from this tapestry
Of delusion
Tear my squares
From this quilt
That you sewed out of my confusion
And guilt
I wasn't worthy
And you wanted to laugh
Wanted to watch me resurrect my heart
And pull my hands from the Earth
Wanted to find my furnace
So you could place your icy gaze on it
To see it warp and crack
So you could watch me break
Gasp then collapse
Just another fallen giant
You sadist
And I fell for it
And still my heart won't allow you to fade
My mind won't allow me to walk away
So hopefully my hands work
And I can claw myself into true safety
Not the one you advertised
That ended up just snake oil
You can keep the scrap of my heart
And use it to fashion armor
I only wanted to make you smile
And keep you safe
If my destruction leads to both
So be it
Let it be
So it goes
Let it be by my own hands

11/29/2025

The false titans rise
Voices loud
Spouting lies with certain voices
Masking their inferiority
With aggression
The true giants
Need no words
They make no sound
They don't need to announce their size
They don't walk loudly
Their footsteps are felt
Not heard.

11/27/2025

Happy thanksgiving 🦉
May the gears in your soul be well greased and every tick be followed by a tock in perfect timing.

11/26/2025

It's unfair
That I am always with you
And I am all alone

11/25/2025

The wounds never heal
They just go numb
Waiting for the right moment
To send impulses to remind
The stitches never seal
They just slow the tide of blood
Waiting for the right moment
To burst and leave you drowning
And baby, I'm drowning
The contents of my heart
Filling my lungs
And I'm regretting
All the songs left unsung
After I sank into silence
And I just want you to know
I love and hate you..
And I don't have the words
To express either one

11/24/2025

They tell me I should be thankful
For being able to go through the motions
Regardless of the outcome.
But I am not Sisyphus
They said I should be grateful
For having flown so high
Regardless of the fall
But isn't that what killed poor Icarus
They said I must stay alive
To share my light
But isn't that why they tied Prometheus
To a stone
To be picked apart
Time and again
Brother Owl sees no use for pointless toil
Brother Fox won't look back fondly on his wounds
And neither will be torn asunder
For the sake of others
Ever again
You can stay in the dark as far as we care

11/21/2025

The tendons are severed
Reduced to a quivering mass
Nose pressed against the floor
Staring silently through the earth
Hoping that the spherical mother
Swallows me into her stomach
So I can grow back through her follicles
Green, maybe with purple petals
Oh ancient torturer
How you have rendered me to nothing
You choose to pair most
With your favor
And become a sadist to the few
The few of us
You were disgusted existed
O love
you have slashed me to ribbons
Too hideous for her to use to tie back her hair
She grimaces at my disfigurement
Some people were born for warmth
I guess I was born
To freeze and sing the blues
There a'int no sunshine
And sometimes I think there never was
I know there really isn't when she's gone
Maybe it never existed at all
But it made for a great song
Even if it has it all wrong