OneLife2Regulate

01/05/2026

• Gratitude in Full Bloom •

It’s barely May 1st @ 4am, but I’m pumped and ready to start the month with unshakeable gratitude, focus, optimism and positivity, in my personal and professional endeavours.

I’m grateful for my past efforts, failures and successes, at home and at work. The last few months, since my low vitamin d and malnourishment diagnosis, I’ve worked at eating more, and consistently taking the much needed vitamins that help support basic life.

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BLOG POST: Gratitude and Focus for May.

08/04/2026

She had something to say.,

08/04/2026

Happy Wednesday!☀️🕊️
I finished and forgot to post. 🌸☠️🌺
Life be life’n..,

05/04/2026

OK.., it’s relaxing, and pretty. 🌸🎨

05/04/2026

Happy Easter! 🌸🕊️
I’m at work.., it’s slow 🐌 🐢
So.., I opened it. 🎨

05/04/2026

I received my diamond art kit today and..,

I threw it in a corner, my desire is gone.

it’s complicated.

CPTSD is running the show right now.

The absolute biggest trigger for me:

Feeling like I’m forced and have no choice.

My child doesnt realize, with adults, this trigger can be detrimental to life..., it can destroy everything in its path, with not an ounce of remorse, like babe, I burn bridges on purpose, as to leave no posible way back into my life.

It’s tough to think my only option before doing something stupid is finding her a new family that can love her and nurture her through these phases because I can’t.

05/04/2026

I’ve lost count how many times I’ve cussed at God. Pi**ed that he won’t let me fvcking go, don’t understand WHY. You got 7billion other people you can torture, besides me.

I've done my best to make the best of it, survived unimaginable s**t and then just when I thought I couldnt, wouldn’t have kids.., or was damned for life, thinking I’d die young.

I was saved from all that to go through all this.., I’m fuvcking tired bruh.

05/04/2026

I booted my kids 2 phones off wifi..,

She got back on anyways.

I can’t think straight, I’m about to lose it.

I hope this food and a little country will soothe my soul, even if for tonight, for a moment. I just need to make it 1 more night.

At least that’s what I keep telling myself.

04/04/2026

No food. No vitamins.
Going to skeep til tomorrow.
If I do this every day for a couple of weeks, who knows, I might just wither away.
I’d love that. Good night world.

04/04/2026

I got a feeling the big boss is going to ask ‘what changed recently, your numbers!?’

My response will be:

Well..., My daughter turned 12 recently and has pi**ed me off every day for 5 weeks straight. 🥴🤣

04/04/2026

Being a parent is hard,

Being a single parent, even harder.

Expecting a single parent to NEVER lose their s**t..., is asking too much of me.