09/05/2026
Sometimes I realize that I don't only miss Dad.
I miss the person I was when he was still here.
Before life became more complicated. Before I understood how quickly people can become memories. Before I had to learn what it meant to keep going without the person who had known me for so long.
Dad knew parts of me that nobody else ever will.
He knew who I was before I became careful. Before I learned to hide certain worries. Before I had to become stronger than I thought I could be.
Sometimes I wish I could go back to that version of myself for just one day.
Not to change anything.
Just to sit beside Dad again, hear his voice, and feel the comfort of being completely known.
Because losing him changed more than my life.
It changed the person who was living it.
And I think a small part of me will always miss the version of myself who still had Dad to come home to.