07/16/2026
I’ve been trying not to think about August too much because I know what’s coming.
In just a few weeks, I’ll be celebrating the birthdays of both of my boys.
💙⭐ Button
August 18, 1998 – September 4, 1998
🩷⭐ J’Kaylen
August 25, 2011 – January 21, 2026
I wish I could tell you I’m ready, but I’m not.
I keep thinking about what they would be doing now, what they’d want for their birthdays, what their laughs would sound like, and what it would feel like to wrap my arms around them one more time.
Instead, I’m left celebrating them in a way no mother ever imagines she will.
People say time helps, but I don’t know that it does. I think we just learn how to carry the weight. The love I have for my boys hasn’t changed, so missing them hasn’t changed either.
Button, you’ll always be my first baby. Even though I only got to hold you for a short time, you’ve been in my heart every day since. You made me a mom, and I’ll always be grateful for that gift.
J’Kaylen, I miss hearing you call me Mom. I miss your smile, your laugh, your hugs, and all the little things I used to take for granted. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you.
I don’t know how I’m going to make it through these birthdays. I just know that I’ll celebrate you both the best way I know how—with love, with memories, with tears, and with the pride of being your mom.
Happy Heavenly Birthday, my sweet boys.
I love you yesterday, today, tomorrow, and forever.
Love,
Mom 💙⭐🩷⭐