Truth Revealed Lies Uncovered

06/13/2026

I’m genuinely curious why so much sexual immorality happens in religious organizations. Why is SA not a big deal but if two teenagers have mutual consensual relationship all hell breaks loose. The stories go on and on.

I’ve talked to several who try to justify it. Like for instance Sean Addis tried to tell me the other day a twelve year old Girl was at fault for him taking advantage of her. He said she seduced him. He said it was ok to talk about because the statute of limitations was up. He’s not the first to say this. I’ve talked with several that have tried to tell me r**e is not a thing. In a conversation the other day he also said another member didn’t SA his wife she said she didn’t want to do it and he convinced her to do it anyways and that’s just her job. He wouldn’t have to force her is she did her job.

One question has weighed heavily on me since leaving a high-control religious environment:

Why do allegations of sexual abuse seem to surface so frequently in organizations that demand unquestioning loyalty and obedience? Why do these type of people flock to religion????

This is not an accusation against every member. Many of the people I knew were kind, sincere, and genuinely trying to do what they believed was right. But I believe it is fair to ask difficult questions about systems, cultures, and beliefs when those questions involve the safety of children and vulnerable people.

What is it about environments where authority is rarely questioned that can make abuse harder to report?

What happens when members are taught that speaking out is disloyal, rebellious, or harmful to the reputation of the group?

What happens when victims fear losing their family, friends, community, or even their relationship with God if they come forward.

If an organization values truth, then truth should never be a threat to it.

If an organization values justice, then protecting victims should always come before protecting reputations.

If an organization values accountability, then no leader, teacher, elder, minister, or authority figure should ever be above scrutiny.

History has shown us that abuse is not limited to any one religion, denomination, or organization. The problem is often not belief itself, but systems that place power beyond questioning and loyalty above accountability.

I don't ask these questions to attack people. I ask them because every victim deserves to be heard, every child deserves to be protected, and every organization should be willing to examine itself honestly.

Silence protects systems.

Truth protects people.

03/23/2026

One of the hardest parts about leaving a cult is the quiet pressure to prove that you are okay. Proving that your life is better now, that you are happier, lighter, and free. There is this underlying fear that if you show any pain, people will use it against you and say, “See? They left and now they are broken.” So a lot of people try to hold it all together. They stay positive. They stay optimistic. They try to move on as if nothing ever really happened. But healing does not work like that.
Pain does not disappear just because you silence it. And the truth is, the sadness, the anger, the grief, the confusion you might feel, none of it means you made the wrong choice. It means something real happened to you. It means it mattered. It means you are waking up to it.

You are not weak for struggling. You are not a failure for hurting. You are responding exactly the way a human being does after going through something that asked so much of you for so long. Be gentle with yourself in this process. There is no timeline you have to follow and no version of “healed” you need to perform for anyone else. If you need to sit with it, sit with it. If you need to grieve, grieve. If you need to feel angry, let yourself feel that too. You are allowed to feel all of it without apologizing.

There is a deep weight that comes with realizing you did not deserve what you went through. For a lot of people, that realization does not feel freeing at first. It feels heavy. It can come with grief for the years you gave, the trust you placed, the parts of yourself you had to silence just to belong. It can feel like pieces of your childhood or your identity were taken from you. It can leave you questioning how it all happened in the first place.

If you feel that, you are not alone.
Nothing about that makes you foolish. It does not make you naive. It means you were human. You trusted, you hoped, you tried to make sense of the world with what you were given at the time. That says more about your capacity to believe and to care than it does about any failure.

So instead of turning that pain against yourself, meet it with compassion. Let yourself process it without rushing to fix it. Let yourself mourn what was lost without minimizing it. Your experience is valid, and your feelings make sense. And as you move forward, slowly and in your own time, begin to come back to yourself. Learn what it means to trust your own voice again. Learn what it feels like to set boundaries without fear. Learn how to give yourself the love and respect that may have been missing for a long time.

You are not behind. You are not ruined. You are not too late. You are someone who made it out, and that alone is something powerful.

If I can give one piece of advice to anyone, it is this. Learn how to trust your gut. It is never wrong. Learn how to believe in yourself. Learn how to love yourself. Most importantly, learn how to set boundaries and do not ever tolerate disrespect.

And no matter where you are in the process, you are allowed to heal, you are allowed to take your time, and you are absolutely worthy of a life that feels like your own.

08/31/2025

I’ve been reflecting on the corruption and cruelty of the COG cult the last few days. Around the fire tonight, we were remembering the death that always seemed to surround us. We were taught that medical intervention was a sin, that when it was your time to go, you simply had to accept it. They told us to trust only in the “apostles” and their supposed prayers of healing. But what that really meant was a lot of good people suffered and died unnecessarily.
I remember hearing a story about a woman whose baby got stuck during labor. Her child died, and she wasn’t taken to a hospital for three days. They saved her life, but only because she was important to the leadership. Others weren’t given that chance. I remember those with cancer wasting away at home, denied even basic pain medication. I remember visiting a man who had a hole in his throat from cancer, his eyes filled with tears as the “saints” said their goodbyes, while he lay there in torment.
So many babies, mothers, and families suffered because births took place in living rooms with no medical help. One mother carrying her ninth child died alongside her baby when complications arose, something that routine checkups could have caught in time. My uncle also trusted their prayers and their so-called apostles, he had faith also in God and he too passed away waiting for a healing that never came.
There were young fathers taken too soon one with pneumonia who left behind a pregnant wife and her two children. Another with cancer that the Leadership declared “healed,” demanded that we rejoice, and even claimed God Himself had spoken and promised their recovery. She said if he dies God is a Liar and we will raise him from the dead ourselves. When he died anyway, the leaders refused to admit they were wrong. Instead, they turned on the lay members, accusing the congregation of doubt and disbelief and, blaming grieving families for the deaths. They were of course not sucesful at raising him back from the grave. That’s the cruelty of it all: they held themselves up as God’s on earth but shifted responsibility for every failure onto their followers.
And yet, the hypocrisy was always there. When Ray Tinsman’s own nephew nearly died, he received the medical treatment and surgery that saved his life. Leaders reserved real help for their own while condemning others to needless suffering.
The truth is, these men were never healers. They were frauds who played God with people’s lives. They preached faith while denying compassion. They let mothers, fathers, children, and grandparents die so they could hold onto power and control.
Those lives mattered. Every single one. They didn’t deserve to be lost to arrogance, to superstition and, to a cult that put its pride above human life. Telling these stories now is not about bitterness—it’s about truth. It’s about honoring the people who suffered and making sure the lies no longer hide their pain.
No more silence. No more stolen lives. No more worshiping men.

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08/29/2025

To Those Who Watch, Judge, and Gossip,
I know most of you follow me on social media just to stalk, screenshot, and gossip. Even some of you X-cult members. I used to care, now I don’t. The truth is, my life itself proves you wrong. The better I do, the more you try to smear my name. So here’s more material for you to share. Enjoy! 😁
First, let’s get the stories straight. I’ve been called a liar and worse for exposing what really goes on. But I have no reason to lie. The Church of God Restoration (widely known as the COG cult on 49) is exactly as horrible as you’ve heard—honestly, multiply every rumor by ten and you’d be closer to the truth.
The sexual abuse there runs deep, and it has for decades. Years ago, pastors were abusing teenage girls. What did the ministry do? Cover it up and blame the victims. If a child was abused, they were told it was their fault for being “loose.” Imagine calling a child loose to excuse your own sickness.

Here’s the reality:
• A teenage boy went to the ministry for help after being forced into sexual acts by an older man. He begged for it to stop. The ministry told him to send screenshots, delete them, and they’d “take care of it.” Later, they turned on him: “You don’t have proof. If you weren’t so loose, this wouldn’t have happened.” They even reminded him of abuse he endured as a small child, using his trauma against him.
• A girl, groomed by her adoptive father from childhood, tried many times to escape. By her late teens, the abuse escalated. She eventually became pregnant, and instead of protecting her, the ministry called her a w***e and claimed the abuse was her fault.

This is the pattern: over and over, victims are silenced and shamed, while abusers walk free. Even if it was just one child, that would be too many. But it’s not one—it’s many. And it doesn’t stop at sexual abuse. Children are beaten with 12-inch glue sticks, metal rods, and fishing poles and really anything you can think of. Some of you don’t know what it’s like to feel blood running down your legs. They are left with bloody welts, but no one listens when they cry out. People ask, “Why don’t these kids just speak out?” The answer is simple: they have no one to run to. Not the police, not the ministry—no one. The cycle of silence and violence continues.

This cult thrives on hypocrisy. It preaches holiness from the pulpit while protecting predators behind the scenes. It destroys children’s lives, then blames the victims for the trauma they endured. It silences anyone who dares to speak out, shaming them into silence. But here’s what they forget: children grow up. The ones they silenced will one day speak, and when they do, there’s nothing the abusers can do to stop it.
I’ll be honest, sometimes I get sick knowing the most vile people in the world live free of consequences. But here’s the truth: those who commit crimes against children have no business pointing fingers at anyone else. You stalk my socials waiting for my downfall, but all you’ll see is success. Yes, I still struggle with the trauma you caused, but I’m thriving—and you can’t take that from me.Leaving that cult was the best decision I ever made.

When asked why I left, my answer is simple: I could not stand by while children were being destroyed. I could not support a place where sexual abuse is normalized, where victims are blamed, and where corruption runs unchecked. They say young people only leave because they’re “possessed by the devil” or “just want to have sex.” But the truth is, the worst sexual immorality happens inside those walls—between siblings, cousins, apostles, and prophets. The in**st there is out of control. That’s the reality.
So no, I don’t want to hear another word from those drowning in corruption while pointing fingers at others.

You silenced us as children, but you will not silence us as adults.

01/21/2025

https://open.spotify.com/episode/4BMtq9IFhnQ0BlXhED8k4F?si=2lez54ktSuySx07WJ0FwOQ

Beyond the Vow · Episode

01/21/2025

https://www.youtube.com/live/yW7CCoJOPBo?si=93lB44QZqgoQ2G7R

The Church of God Restoration is located in Greenville, Ohio. Ray Tinsman is the cult leader and has labeled himself chief apostle. The cult has twelve “apos...

01/17/2025

I apologize for all of the recent post all of a sudden. I figured I would post these here so they wouldn’t get lost in the pending TikTok ban.

01/17/2025