10/28/2025
There's something you should know. Take a listen to this set. Do it, beginning to end, I bet you wont or could even last the hour. Don't even invest in this message if you can't even take this seriously or don't have time. Now know the kid standing in front and center of that sound would'nt of traded that hour in for the world..his shoes, my shoes are still stuck burning in front of that stage...Noting my favorite moment is looking over to my best friend and smiling, pointing at the stage, giggling telling him "We can do this you know?"..This was my first year attempting to come out into the crowd, I was searching for the sound I once heard before and I found it but was still left searching for answers....I've traveled the country since to find those moments again and I've only been able to gather some, but not all the pieces. I've been looking to find someone, someone on my own that they themselves want to sit down and show and say "Hey, you like that? I see your trying and your doing great but here's the right way"...I'm really speaking to the masses here and ones who are involved deeper, I'm speaking to the ones who are listening, if you wanna be a snob then leave, you'll just be another roadblock to brush out of the way later. I'm a kid who has stuck his head into the scenes of 35+ states and I'm pround of who I've become and everything that I've done to support, even going through the things I'm not proud of, those are all experiences and lessons learned...I know what to do, my hands and mind are frozen to the core. I need clarity on why does it feel still so horrible on not being able to find someone that can see this and hears this...Whats the big secret huh? What else do you gotta do? I've faught tooth and nail to even be this far. What makes you tough? You wanna push and shove, throw your words, show off your music, play a sick tune, talk some s**t, f**k around and you will find out that there will and always will be someone bigger and badder and playing better and harder than you or I ever will. Yeah I see you big dogs all above me, I've been watching all of you closely for years, if you know me you know I always try my best to pay my respects and honor the stuggles and bulls**t yall have had to overcome and go through out there. This is for all the homies that are in the same stupid stuggle too, its hard and some are just on different paths..I get it, people are f**king going hard, like really really hard and all I wanna do is stay out of everyone else's stories and paths where I'd know i'd just be in their way or only be able to give peices of my commitment, I get it, I promise and I see you...My life got a little thrown in my own face and I wanted to figure this out on my own and I am crippling myself because I cant find someone who can get into my head like this that can sit down. Yes you can pay $2000-$12000 to "pop-off", take a class that shows you almost nothing or join a bunch of discords and watch a billion tutorials. Cant you see thats not what I'm trying to do and I'm past that and just want to be caught up? Like what kinda system are yall running here? Wake tf up with me, like what's wrong with this stupid broken game we play? So many people just want your money or they dont have time, there's teachers that cant fully understand, paid programs, schools, buy this buy that then you gotta get this to do that, the drama everywhere, stigma, all of it is all bulls**t. You all know and see it, its getting old and I quite frankly dont have time for it. I thought this world would be full of amazing influences but I can you tell first hand they are far and few in-between, thank you to the real ones, you absolutely know who you are. Shame on the ones that push down on the ones coming up into this btw, It's obvious when you fake "the big mystery" and a lot of you haven't done anything with your life outside of music and ya walk and talk like you aint got the same stanky s**t up your ass either, there's bigger things out there than just you or I. That hater ass, im better they aint s**t gatekeeping my secrets bulls**t has to go. We all die, then its gone ready for the next kid to take the lead, like a thousand baby producers where born today that are gunna turn out way better than all of us, we aint s**t...To finish, know if you can't listen to this mix or music like this and at the very least imagine standing there with me and then after still being able talk to me politely, you are going to have a tough time getting to talk to me in real life. Im tired of being almost mute but I can not talk about my life, its way too complicated with way too much. I can not talk correctly to most anymore, I am fuzzed out and frozen inside. With the feeling like I have way to much to say I've been choked up since that day. I'm going to die trying regardless but I think I truly am looking and need someone in my head, help.
Thank you Memory Lapse for this set, I knew it was possible before but you made it crystal clear that night.
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