07/17/2025
Enjoying the slow, sunny, carefree morning with the kittens. Watching them is a reminder to soak in the good that I am surrounded by.
My heart has led me down a path of doing, giving, and staying busy. What gets me through each day is knowing it won’t be like this for long. The phrase that plays through my head on repeat is, “a step back is not a setback”. My life looks like it did 2 years ago before I stepped into the unknown.
I chose to step into a full time working role doing something I am great at, it is fulfilling to make an impact everyday in leadership. With that, I am away from my home, away from my heart, away from my purpose. I chose to invest my time coaching softball, but it fills my cup being able to share the field with my daughter as she works hard on her own goals. I chose to grow a large garden that I have a hard time keeping up with, I am learning to accept those limitations.
My guidance is stuck on the feeling the freedom that came with the abundance of time. Cooking, baking, gardening, harvesting, and preserving food all day. Everything was slow, and fulfilling, and fantastic. I am trying to replicate that feeling without replicating what got me there, making things feel messy and unattainable in this moment.
This may be a hard year, but when I look back it may be the most rewarding. It feels like a puzzle. I am looking for the sweet spot of balance, room to breathe, and being the best version of myself in the worlds I have put myself in. It’s ok to leave my thoughts unfinished, have weeds in the garden, and have a few weeks of limited capacity. Because really, at the end of the day, my heart is full knowing that I am spending time making irreplaceable memories that I’ll have a lifetime to look back and smile about.